Hi
I've lurked on this thread for a while but never knew what to say. I've had an eating disorder on and off between 13 and 18. When I was younger, the weight dropped off really quickly when I tried. Since 14/15 though, I've had a lot of trouble getting any off at all- I have thyroid problems so it's possibly due to this. It's quite hard to explain- I obsess over calories, eat below my calculated BMR and have done for over a year and run for 1.5 hours most days but whilst I feel the physical consequences of this (pale, lightheaded with blurred vision when I stand, shaky), my weight stays relatively constant- I've tried so hard to lose weight and did lose 9lbs over the year and a half but I've been stuck at BMI 20 for what seems like ages now.
I'd kind of accepted that but I just found out that I have to get my thyroid removed in a couple of weeks as it has a large tumour which is growing quickly- I understand that it's necessary but at the same time, it's going to mess my mind up again. The thyroid gland controls metabolism, so from what I've read, when that's gone, even with hormone replacement tablets, weight gain is inevitable- I've read a lot of stories online and most of the people mentioned that they gained at least 10-15lbs in the first year. I'll try very hard to avoid the weight gain and control what I eat very carefully but I don't know how effective that will be- I wouldn't know how to cope with that much weight gain and I know it's a silly thing to worry about when there are more serious side-effects that the operation could lead to but at the same time, I can't stop thinking about it.