Hi there,
I've never posted here before, nice to know there's other people with similar issues. I've never been formally diagnosed with an ED..never wanting to be labelled of considered as anorexic, but the doctors know and i suppose deep down i do too.
My ED was triggered in Year 7, upon moving away from my safe group of friends at primary to a new and confusing senior school. I felt alone, insecure and out of control. Thats when i felt most vulnerable, and controlling my food intake made me feel secure and happy. But then things escalated and..well, i was first refereed to a clinic.
For a few months i was 'back on track' and seemingly okay, i've always been small..slim, for my height but nevertheless.
My second big trigger was year 10/11, with the accumulation of exam pressure. This appears to be a common cause in these threads. All through my exams i didn't eat a thing. I felt dizzy, regular fainting..regular trips to the doctors, constant weighing. It was the most vulnerable, scared and alone i have ever felt. On the day of my GCSE results, i drastically underachieved. I genuinely believe my ed had a severe affect on my results. My predicted grades, in comparison to what i achieved were beyond different and i felt crushed.
So now, after my continued battle i am determined to make my AS results good. Although still 'underweight' (8st 1lbs at 5ft 7") this is a great improvement to my previous self. I feel fresh. Although i have come to terms with the fact that Ana will always be with me, i feel more in control than ever before.
This is my story so far, thank you for listening. Best wishes to you all xxx