OK, I've never talked about anxiety on a forum before but I feel that now is a good time to do so. I don't really know when I started to get it, I think it was about a year ago or two ago and I never really noticed having it to begin with. It's really affecting me now though and I cannot live like this. Things were so different before I had it and I do not know whether I will get better. It has really affected my work rate and this upsets me. I was rather hard working student but I am not anymore.
My grades have dropped because of it and this actually hurts. I also have a fear of curses and this has led me to be afraid of archaeology, my real passion. I have been led into a vicious cycle that has not only affected my school life but my home life also. It is tiring, both physically and mentally and I hate it. Sometimes, I feel like giving up and locking myself away and talking to no one. I know that isn’t the way forward,but my self-esteem and confidence have both taken a battering.
Anxiety has also affected my social life. I was rather hoping that Sixth Form would be a new start for me but my increased paranoia meant that I messed things up…again.There are so many nice girls who I would have loved to have spoken to and got to know but I’ve missed my opportunity. I’ve lost count of the amount of times I’ve let my friends down through feeling sorry for myself and I’m determined to get myself out of this state but I feel low because of it. Can anybody relate? Are there people on here that would be willing to talk to me to give support? I would really appreciate it.