Sick of feeling this way. My life has been **** for a good number of years- my life is **** so I'm depressed, then I am depressed because my life is ****. Go on give me the old "Only you can change it" repertoire. I KNOW that, I have identified the areas of my life that I need to improve and I have come to the conclusion that I cannot change them, they are not quickly and satisfactorily attainable. I know that there is no quick fix-but depression is a vicious cycle and it has led me to become very nonchalant and apathetic about my outlook-you could say I am past caring.. And even then will I be happy once I have achieved that, if I achieve that? I could tell the doctor how I feel but I could til I'm blue in the face and they still wouldn't help me- I see them once every 6 months for Christ sake-then when I DID see them the other day all he said was "you will get a girlfriend and a job and friends in time" OK Einstien, you know that right? You can guarantee that, right? It's been 7 years since dropping out of university (due largely to mental health issues). My life has been in flux. I could count on one hand the people that care about me and even then it's largely due to my appalling childhood (and environmental factors) that I am like this-my parents are very much partly to blame. The doctor might have me sectioned. I've been there done that several times (psychosis, not depression any of the times). My life hasn't got any better. I don't even think I'm suicidal it just comes to a head and you get sick of living life when all it is is suffering. And I can justifiably blame people in my life for contributing to that misery-parents, siblings, school friends and so called mates. So I don't know anymore.