I'm quite a shy person and sometimes this can be very frustrating. I'm not good at making new friends because when I meet people I'm not very talkative, hence I come across as weird, miserable and cold when I'm the complete opposite. I find it really hard to make small talk. I have lost many friends who are loud, outgoing etc because they loss patience with me for being shy. Also, I'm not the most handsome bloke in town which doesn't help matters. Strangely my best mate is the complete opposite to me. He's very loud, extrovert and very outgoing. He's always telling me too build up my confidence but its easier said then done. He always telling me.
'if I had a 2:1 degree from Manchester Uni and a masters from Bristol Uni and Grade 8 violin like you have, I'd think I'm God''
It's got to the point where I'm feeling I'll as a result of overthinking about what other people's opinions are of me! I'm just sick of people judging me because I'm not loud and outgoing I'm very envious of people who are loud, party-going with big personalities. Should I try and change and teach myself how to be more confident/outgoing or just accept that I'll always be quiet/introvert.
I know I sound like a total sad case but my low self-esteem/lack of confidence is really worrying me!