I don't know what to do, i feel confused and anxious about starting 2nd year uni + life in general.
Starting second yr now but feel so defated. I feel anxious cuz second year counts now. I did okay in my first year. I spoken to my personal tutor about my anxiety and she was trying to encourage me. I don't know how am gonna cope. We start face to face lectures next week and mentally my mind is not there. We have already started online lectures for the matter and have an exam this week which i am not prepared to sit for personal-home-health related reasons/issues. My mental health has gone down. I am trying to motivate myself but on the inside i am crying. I have struggled to focus at home since March/April. I don't have my own space at home to conentrate/revise.....i share my laptop as well....sooo thats great!
Plus whats been happening in the streets of London(knife crime and gun crime) is making me anxious to leave my house. I don't feel safe in my own street. I have nightmares in my sleep sometimes, thinking someone is out there to get me to shoot me or knife me.
I did not really make friends at uni during my first year so i don't really have people to talk to/ reach out to for support/motivation.
On top of that because of the pandemic, i havent been able to look for suitable accommodations near my uni. At the moment i live at home with my parents and if i were to commute to uni it would take me like 2 hours there and back.
I guess i just feel overwhelmed and need to rant.
Lastly, i acknowledge that i may not be the only one feeling like this although it does feel like that sometimes.