Hi
since I was like 10-11 I’ve been pacing. I would do this back and forth in my room in the same direction and path. I would do it secretly and would close the door and fix the curtains so no slits and gaps were there. This was because of a belief that were people spying on me or people seeing me pace.
I would also step very carefully when pacing/pace on my tip toes it just made me feel better and release the energy/agitation I had. But I also would do it because I didn’t want people to hear me or I was nervous of making noise.
I would lose awareness of my surroundings, sometimes I’m immersed in a fictional world while pacing. Most of the time I don’t even realise I’m pacing.
I would do this for hours and would wake up and pace throughout the night. It would get in the way of homework and mess with school since instead of doing work or sleep I would be pacing. So I would be tired in the morning/get in trouble for not doing my homework.
I’m in college and getting treated for low mood and anxiety, I’ve never mentioned this to my therapist or gp because I never saw this as a problem, I still don’t. Do you think I should mention it? What could this be a cause of?