Bulimia

However it probably would not help how I feel about myself. But still a nice plan. Thanks

Also buy a calander (or print out the dates for June), and cross off each day you dont make yourself puke - looking at all those Xs will motivate you to keep going.

Awww thank you . Will do

OP, I completely get where you're coming from. I've suffered with various eating disorders over the past two years - anorexia for 18 months, bulimia for 6 months (and counting), and that's also mixed with orthorexic tendencies over the past month. It's definitely about taking it one day at a time at this stage. I've found when I try to stop binging and then purging it's really helpful for me to think of the positives from stopping, e.g. more money to spend on things I like rather than food I don't really want or need. That really keeps me going, then, once I've stopped for a few days, I find it useful to remind myself that I have stopped for a few days and again to pat myself on the back for that. As someone else has said, identifying triggers will help you. For me, social anxiety played a huge part. I gained weight after basically being forced to by friends, but as I gained weight, I became convinced friends were judging me for being a disappointment because I had gained weight again, and then that triggered a binge/purge cycle. I also used it as an emotional coping mechanism because I lacked the ability to process emotions for a while. Anyway, enough about me, you're doing well, so just keep it up and keep reminding yourself how amazing you are to be attempting recovery.

Thank you so much. I hope you’re okay.
❤️

Thanks and to be honest, at the moment, I'm quite content with having an eating disorder (as odd as that sounds, but it is comforting to me), though I just wish I could stop binging and purging.

I get you because I used to feel like that sometimes too.