I've been at uni a year and a half and made no friends and had no sex due to my social anxiety. Although recently I've decided to push myself and make changes to this by seeing a therapist and I'm working on my socially anxious thoughts and gradually pushing myself to meet people. Although I'm just so so so depressed and shocked at how easily and often single people at uni have sex. All you hear is single people shagging all the time and it hurts me so much because I'm single and want to have sex with tons of girls just as much as any other single guy does but how does this even happen?
People at uni meet each other for the first time talk for a while and then they have sex with each other when 1-2 hours earlier they never even knew the other existed? Like I can't get my head around how sexual everyone is here. When I walk past girls they don't even look at me, you'd never be able to tell they have casual sex so easily. I'm not talking about clubs but I've heard single people in my accomodation have sex on weekday nights like where do they meet these guys? Do they meet them at uni then they ask for the girls number, flirt for a while in person then through text then the girl invites the guy round?
And don't get me started on tinder, I'm very attractive, I know that sounds like a ******** arrogant thing to say but trust me I'm the least arrogant person ever, just being honest about my looks and what people have told me, I have seen a lot of girls smile and act giddy when looking my way but online all the girls just ignore me even though I experiemnt with lots of different pickup lines so I'm not being boring, they don't even open the message then you see lots of posts on the tsr saying that lots of girls use tinder for hookups. The many girls I've matched with just ignore me, are guys at uni actually matching with girls who want to meet with them for sex? Like I'd have thought most guys experience on tinder would be like mine being ignored almost all of the time.
Like I just don't get it and it's really really making me depressed, like I already have enough **** on my plate with being socially anxious going to uni is hard enough as it is and I really really want to have a sexual experience with a girl I just don't know how to go about it. The girl above me has had a lot of one night stands round recently and she moans really loudly and it makes me so jealous that I can't have that experience too, at first it just made me depressed, it was the worst pain I've ever felt but since shes been shagging more guys now it's actually giving me full on depression I've stayed in bed most days this weeks skipped going to uni, I've almost ran out of food and am to depressed and anxious to go out and buy more all because of this whole girls thing.
Before the girl above me started pulling as much like a few weeks ago when she had less sexual partners round, I was depressed because I felt that girls hated me although that wasn't full on depression like it is now. I was just really lonely and wanted female attention and girls looked at me with contempt, my facial expression when I was sad must have came across as moody, that was my only explanation for it.
I'm so so so depressed now like I literally can't even function and do the stuff I need to do and I'm falling behind on my uni essays due this week too. I just hate how every other guy so easily gets to have casual sex and I don't. If the girl above me has sex again I don't know I just can't cope anymore, I had a nervous breakdown becasue of this last week and my mental health is getting worse day by day because of this. I'm a guy and I need love and sex too.