I have returned to work following being off for several months with anxiety. I am not feeling 100% I have gastric/reflux issues (probably from the anxiety) and feel my breathing is impacted sometimes. This all adds to the anxiety.
I have returned to work and just completed a 3 week phased return but am feeling the pressure again now I am full time. The thing is it is not work it is just the fact that once I am in work there’s no escape if I feel panicky. I was half way through my shift earlier this week and was asked to drive to a meeting. I had had acid reflux for hours and my throat and chest were feeling tight, my breathing felt/sounded different. I felt like I was going to pass out. I got very anxious and I know it is cowardly but I pulled up to a safe place and informed work that I wouldn’t be in for the rest of the day.
I then had to go to an attendance meeting yesterday where they said that if I have another absence in 6 months it will go to a higher level/be more formal. I have been in today and got through although I felt anxious/uncomfortable. I am just sort of dreading that thing happening again
I honestly wasn’t like this this time last year. I worked full time all through covid with hardly any health issues. My sickness record has gone from excellent to very poor. This new team didn’t know me a year ago though.
I feel like quitting everyday as although work is helping to provide a distraction from my anxiety issues in some way it is causing anxiety in other ways. I need to stay calm to allow my physical health to improve.
Just wanted advice really. My issue is not compatible with the sickness policy at work -it goes off sickness periods - 1 day is basically the same as 3 months it is still classed as 1 period. So someone could have 3 days off through the year and be put on monitoring as they have had 3 periods. Someone else could have 2 lots of 3 months off and only be classed as having 2 sickness periods. I don’t think this accomadates people who have chronic issues very well though.