I feel like I'm never going to be happy. All my life I've been depressed and I've been the scapegoat, the person people take their anger out. I feel like I'm not allowed to be happy, I shouldn't be happy and I'm hated by everyone. I feel like if I say how I really feel I'm made to shut up and I've been told to shut up. I don't know what to do anymore as life is getting harder and harder.