Hi there,
My mind keeps reliving toxic thoughts and resentments towards others. It at times wants to punish others for stuff they did in the past, though they have long gone. My mind resents myself for not having stood up to people ok the past when I was bullied. I’ve tried journaling a lot and I know that I’ve reinvented myself and gone much further ahead in life than any of my critics. However, I still don’t feel good enough and have this constant need to prove myself to others who may have not met the reinvented and improved me.