This is going to be a pretty long post.
I'm in Year 12, doing biology, chemistry and physics and pretty much from the start of Year 12 I was super set on getting into medicine. I got work experience during my first half term, I planned out all aspects of my application and I could tell you almost everything about the UK medical school application itself. I even dropped psychology for physics, which I suck at, but Cambridge themselves say that most successful medicine applicants have 3 science/maths A-levels (This is the most stupid decision I know but it's one I will have to live with.) But for the past couple of weeks I've been going on a deep dive on TSR and Reddit, and from what I've seen, almost every single doctor in the UK regrets their choice of choosing medicine. These people who once genuinely had a passion for medicine now are severely overworked and severely underpaid under the NHS, and it's not like moving to Australia is super easy (although I don't know anything about that actual process). I literally someone say that the work is 'mind gruelling and monotonous', and that junior doctors especially are constantly disrespected. Almost every single doctor regrets their job, and none of it is worth their sacrifices.
I don't know what to think. I knew that medicine was incredibly difficult, but I was prepared for it if it meant that I could study the fascinating field of medicine, and use my knowledge to aid people at their most vulnerable, and getting their trust to let me do my best to help them and not give up helping them. I thought that's what it's about. But apparently being a doctor or a surgeon is just a lifetime of incredible responsibility that leaves no room for mistakes unless you like killing someone, years of study and DEBT (this is something I'm really worried about) to be paid disgustingly low wages (it's not like I need to be mega rich but I also REALLY don't want to struggle financially along with struggling mentally and physically) and the knowledge that the thing you used to work so hard at just a chance for is now the reason you will spend the rest of your life hating what you do and wishing you had just done a different degree.
I genuinely want to be a doctor. I'm not intelligent at all, but my enjoyment in biology and chemistry pushes me to do well, even if it means putting even more effort to understand simple ideas. I'm not good at maths, there's no way I could pursue anything in CS/finance, and I have looked into other degrees such as biotechnology, which really interest me as well, but I don't know if there are many jobs with biology related degrees that pay above average. Getting into medical school and becoming a doctor would be an amazing privilege, but I don't know if I want to study medicine just to be another doctor who no longer loves what they do at all and has developed resentment towards medicine because the immense stress and regret that comes with the job doesn't outweigh helping people, which is understandable, but terribly unfortunate.
Right now I have the opportunity to study any degree I want (provided I get accepted) and I just don't want to regret what I do. I've made so many regrets when it comes to school already. I really want to be a doctor, a surgeon specifically, but do I take the risk of very much potentially hating my career and being burnt out everyday that I am unable to provide the care my patients deserve? Do I do biotechnology and still enjoy what I do but probably not have much job security and not earn good money unless I do a PhD? Or do I say frick it and try to find a way to do computer science to earn good money while not having the right A-levels (biology, chemistry, physics)?
If anyone has any advice I would seriously appreciate it. I'm also considering dentistry, I like how you still get to learn about the body you're just specialising in teeth and also how practical it is, but I'm just not super duper passionate about that. I'm also resitting GCSE maths and English language because I want better grades in them, just some more major decisions I made just to improve my chances of being accepted into medical school. I hate myself for this.
I know my post is super detailed and I probably seem like an intense overthinker, but I would really just like some advice about choosing careers. Everyday for months I have aspired to be a doctor, but if pursing that means I will inevitably lose my passion for medicine and being so burnt out that I suck as a doctor, I'd rather not risk it.