Depression Society MKIII

Grrr, some of the TSR members really drive me up the wall sometimes . I know it's only the internet, but seriously, I've never been on a forum with so much negativity as well as positivity, and my depression might be making me extra sensitive to it . Ah well, what can I do but ignore it? It's funny how in this thread society, when you moan and whine about something, you get hugs and reassuring advice, whereas if you do it almost anywhere else on this site, you just get negged and asked to "shut the **** up" . And then in H&R it's just a mix of those good and bad responses. But there are plenty of nice members who have been cool to me anyway, including people in here, so that's OK, thank you guys.

Argh, I'm feeling really down and crap again. Trying to add another 1000 words to this 3000 word English essay of mine, but my brain is aching just to add to it. I might just go sleep, I don't think I can do this right now .

I know what you mean, some people on here are idiots, but those idiots always end up getting banned. If only there was some way to stop them always coming back/being replaced.

Do whatever you think is best right now.

Some of those idiots have high rep though, so I dunno, they're probably cool with some people but not with others . Oh well, I'm gonna try to shut up about it and shrug it off. It sucks how I really can't escape the dickheads, online or offline . I'm just gonna have to watch my back, is all. Aww, thanks for the rep by the way

Grrr, some of the TSR members really drive me up the wall sometimes . I know it's only the internet, but seriously, I've never been on a forum with so much negativity as well as positivity, and my depression might be making me extra sensitive to it . Ah well, what can I do but ignore it? It's funny how in this thread society, when you moan and whine about something, you get hugs and reassuring advice, whereas if you do it almost anywhere else on this site, you just get negged and asked to "shut the **** up" . And then in H&R it's just a mix of those good and bad responses. But there are plenty of nice members who have been cool to me anyway, including people in here, so that's OK, thank you guys.

Argh, I'm feeling really down and crap again. Trying to add another 1000 words to this 3000 word English essay of mine, but my brain is aching just to add to it. I might just go sleep, I don't think I can do this right now .

Grrr, some of the TSR members really drive me up the wall sometimes . I know it's only the internet, but seriously, I've never been on a forum with so much negativity as well as positivity, and my depression might be making me extra sensitive to it . Ah well, what can I do but ignore it? It's funny how in this thread society, when you moan and whine about something, you get hugs and reassuring advice, whereas if you do it almost anywhere else on this site, you just get negged and asked to "shut the **** up" . And then in H&R it's just a mix of those good and bad responses. But there are plenty of nice members who have been cool to me anyway, including people in here, so that's OK, thank you guys.

Argh, I'm feeling really down and crap again. Trying to add another 1000 words to this 3000 word English essay of mine, but my brain is aching just to add to it. I might just go sleep, I don't think I can do this right now .

H&R is terrible imo. there are select people who give good advice but unfortuanalty they are largely outweighed by the ***** who tell you to stfu and man the **** up. Pisses me off too hoe insensitive some people can be.

If you can't dso the work, chill out for a little bit and try and lift your mood (although I understand how difficult that is- need there oh so many times). I find sleep helps a lot tbh

Hi, why are you feeling down at the moment?

I dunno, just a lot of things building up over time really. I'm not fond of my life and I am fed up being me. I feel silly to right down some of the reasons, but I just feel like I totally fail at life, and I really don't know how I'm gonna make things better

Fuck everything

I don't do ANYTHING except lounge about the house doing fuck all for about a week, feeling good about myself..then my best mate offers me a night out tomorrow evening and the thought of it has drained all my self esteem and I don't want to go now I hate socialising, I hate drinking it makes me cry, I hate the long walk home I have to make from town because I left early because I'm upset

I'm never gonna meet anyone. I'm just doomed to be a housebound prick who's scared of other people and the outisde world I can kiss away all my thoughts of having a girlfriend..or even a social life. I'm an embarrassment to everyone I know and they're probably fucking sick of my attitude. I might as well just end it all now..they won't have to put up with me, I won't have to put up forcing myself to be social..plus I doubt I'm gonna get any better at it so it's not like progress is being made

I'm just gonna go cry myself to sleep and maybe tomorrow I can wake up and forget this ever happened and stick to my "safe" routine of being awake and going on the internet until I fall asleep again..I hate my life

I feel so ******* awful. This past week everything is just getting worse and worse. I wake up, feel like ****, go back to bed for a few more hours then sit trying not to cry, usually failing, for the rest of the day. repeat ad infinitum. right now there's so much going on in my head and it's giving me an insanely painful headache yet lying in bed for the past hour just allowed me to focus even more on the pain making it even worse. Oh joy. Now using, like always, tsr as a distraction. Sorry for not replying to people here and just going on and on. Just feel so **** and there is no way out. Been getting "help" for ****....nearly 3 years. **** it's been that long. felt bad for many many more years. nothing ever helps. I just wish people would be honest and tell me it's going to be like this for the next 50 years then I'll know it's not worth continuing. Keep holding onto that hope but it's getting more and more unlikely. Even if, magically, stuff does ever get better I have so many scars and my head is so ****** up from all their poisons that I'd never get the job I want, I'll always feel ashamed of myself. So is there really any point?

I just hate my life now!

I'm seriously considering Therapy now I think it's going too far for my own good I don't want to be like this when I go uni

Is there anywhere I can get it for free?

Feeling down again, don't know why Just feel really apathetic and -warning: typical angsty teen emo crap- unloved and alone TBH. Well, I want to be alone, but like, no one bothers with me when I'm not in school. On MSN I always start the conversations for example, bar maybe one person, (yes, I still use that haha). Why do I bother?

Thanks Cherry

I'm sorry you're feeling so low. There is a point, life is worth it. There will be that one thing out there that works for you, be it one of the many medicines or one of the many talking therapies, there will be something. Don't give up searching for it.

Probably won't be comforting to know, but that's pretty much how I spent my school days - school, home, sleep, repeat. You know, things can get better at university or even if you don't go to university then once you leave school, I found at least, that people are a lot nicer and more genuine whereas at school there's so much pressure to conform and cliques you have to fit into. It's a load of crap and doesn't reflect the rest of most people's lives. Dunno if that helps but yeah things probably will improve for you. I don't know what to suggest for now however, sorry.
Thanks. Yeah, I'm getting very fed up of people who are fake to the extent that even they probably don't realise it anymore. Here's hoping I managed to make friends at uni/actually get into uni!



thanks for the reply, but seriously, I have tried so many things and things have been so crap for so long that yeah not much hope really.
There will be something, there is always something - I'm a strong believer of that. There is hope and you'll find just the thing, most likely when you least expect it/no longer expect it.