Dear you,
After years of liking each other and having a spark you decide to come back into my life. Yes I distanced myself with you being in the army, and all of the work I had but I'm a law student and the pressure is so tough. I couldn't be messed around when you were 'late', just because your casual with arranging dates and times, I can't deal with that. These years at uni doing my law degree is and are the most important in my life, and I've worked so hard to get to where I am. You saw me at school working my arse off, spending nights in the library, extra tutoring at lunchtime, and the all nighters. Just because you never put the effort in, why would you expect me to just drop everything for you and be laid back. I couldn't. I did enough, I told you I would support you in the army, always be there for you, I listened to everything you said and I fell for you. Your army friends told you I was crazy for getting mad at you that day I had a go at you for dropping our plans, but my schedule was so busy and I cancelled on my family to see you.
What did I do to deserve all them harsh insults, all the sarky comments, and all the lies. I honestly thought we would be everything and could be everything. I thought maybe we were meant to be. Thats why I let you insult me for so long and get away with it. I wanted to believe you were hurting and it was a defence mechanism, and that was the reason for being so cruel. You told me you wanted to be with me, a month later you told me "I'd put you off being with someone ever".
Guess what. I've finally excepted that your nasty. I don't know whats going on in your life, but Im tired of caring, I'm too hurt to care. These last few months I've been so low because of you. I'm finally talking to someone new, and I'm starting to feel happier again. I hope it works out because I feel so numb already, I can't bare being rejected once more.
Best of luck with your future. It wont involve me. I hope one day you realise what you did and what you lost.
x