Feel like a bit of an imposter for posting in this thread, but I don't really know where else to go, so...
I used to struggle EDNOS and purging through my last couple of years of highschool. My parents found out, and forced me into therapy and to eat normally again. Since then, I've gained all the weight I'd lost back and more and been pretty successful in drowning out a lot of sneaky ED thoughts with a ridiculous work and hobbies.
But I'm moving out for university for a couple of weeks, and I've noticed some of my old habits coming back over the past few months. I feel like maybe I'm trying to pick up from where I left off now that I wont have my parents peering over my shoulder...
I really, really don't want to get help- I never wanted to recover in the first place, and I know that I should nip this in the bud but I just can't. If i'm honest, I don't really know why I'm posting this here. I just wanted to out somewhere, I guess...