Glad you enjoyed it
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I can understand what you mean. When I am genuinely enjoying myself in the back of my mind I still think 'why do I feel so ****?'
Ah you've got a good friend there! Did you watch one in the end?
Things feel a bit strange at the moment. Before this week I was just generally feeling really low with very negative thoughts and just had a bad outlook about everything. But this week, I have no idea what's changed, I'm feeling the most ok I have felt in months... maybe even years. I haven't done anything different and feel bad about being ignored by friend but now it's like there's nothing huge weighing me down.
Before this week I would spend the day either feeling not too bad because of keeping myself busy or just faking being happy but then breaking down and feeling terrible whenever I am alone but this week I haven't. I even sang along to songs that generally make me cry...
Sorry for the ramble. It's good feeling this way but it also feels strange! I don't think it'll last though.
How have you been? Sorry about the things happening with your sister but like others have said, it isn't your fault
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And thanks for the PM a while back, it was really sweet of you to write such kind things
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