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Feels like I'm slipping. Been hoping it was just a bad few days, but it's lasting longer and longer... hoping that it's circumstantial and maybe because I've not had cbt for a month, but I'm scared this is just me sinking back to where I was.
Original post by IDukem
Not really, but i'm a master of illusion by not letting on that i'm struggling to keep it together at the seems in real life.
Feel free to PM me any time hun.Original post by PonchoKid
So sorry to hear that!
Please feel free to PM me any time. You'll get through it but I know things are hard 
(Sorry I never replied to your quote last night btw, I fell asleep.
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Original post by asdfgah
Feels like I'm slipping. Been hoping it was just a bad few days, but it's lasting longer and longer... hoping that it's circumstantial and maybe because I've not had cbt for a month, but I'm scared this is just me sinking back to where I was.
So sorry to hear that, I feel a bit the same
I know the last thing you probably wanna do is talk to me, but feel free to PM or catch me on Skype (though I barely go on at the moment) any time. Hope things improve and it's just a blip 
Original post by 08batee
So sorry to hear that! Please feel free to PM me any time. You'll get through it but I know things are hard
(Sorry I never replied to your quote last night btw, I fell asleep. )
So sorry to hear that!
Please feel free to PM me any time. You'll get through it but I know things are hard (Sorry I never replied to your quote last night btw, I fell asleep.
)Cheers hun. Just a shock really
Its ok hun, glad you got sleep and i hope your feeling better today
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Original post by 08batee Feel free to PM me any time hun.
Feel free to PM me any time hun.I may in a bit, depends on whether i'm up for ranting/pouring la heart out
But thank you! You've always been kind to me 
Original post by PonchoKid
Cheers hun. Just a shock really
Its ok hun, glad you got sleep and i hope your feeling better today
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Its ok hun, glad you got sleep and i hope your feeling better today
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Yeah, that's understandable
I hope things feel better for you soon hun, and I'm here whenever Thank you, feeling okay today I think 
Original post by IDukem
I may in a bit, depends on whether i'm up for ranting/pouring la heart out But thank you! You've always been kind to me
But thank you! You've always been kind to me No worries hun, if you don't feel up to it now, then any time I'll do my best to try and help and I'll definitely listen. You're a lovely person and you don't deserve to be sad, please remember that Original post by 08batee
No worries hun, if you don't feel up to it now, then any time I'll do my best to try and help and I'll definitely listen. You're a lovely person and you don't deserve to be sad, please remember that
No worries hun, if you don't feel up to it now, then any time I'll do my best to try and help and I'll definitely listen. You're a lovely person and you don't deserve to be sad, please remember that I will at some point today, but I promise i'll shorten it as much as possible
Just by being there is helpful and I apprieciate it a lot. Aww thank you, I feel that my hearts in the right place at least!! You're lovely too who deserves a tremendous amount of happiness and I have and will continue to believe in you! I finally managed to rep you again haha, it's been forever since I last did (edited 10 years ago)
Original post by PonchoKid
Sorry for your loss.Original post by asdfgah
Feels like I'm slipping. Been hoping it was just a bad few days, but it's lasting longer and longer... hoping that it's circumstantial and maybe because I've not had cbt for a month, but I'm scared this is just me sinking back to where I was.
Is there anything you can do to change your circumstances and see if that has an effect? Hope things start looking up soon. 
Oh man, today I realized that part of the reason I am scared of applying to internships and jobs is because I'm a lazy, immature loser. I don't even know why, for school uni I most often did hard work, and I achieved things. And since January I work part time twice a week full days so I mean 2/7 days a week to 5/7 days a week should be ok. But it's like my subconscious does not want to grow up. All the academic achievements mean nothing if I don't actually at least try applying.
Original post by PonchoKid
You really aren't having a good time at the moment
if you want to talk or just rant feel free to PM me.Original post by asdfgah
Feels like I'm slipping. Been hoping it was just a bad few days, but it's lasting longer and longer... hoping that it's circumstantial and maybe because I've not had cbt for a month, but I'm scared this is just me sinking back to where I was.
That's not good. Did anything change in your life that makes this a lasting thing?
I hope you can turn it around soon! Do you know when your next CBT will be? If not can you make an appointment?
I mentioned in a reply to Sultana how I have been feeling 'ok' since last week. Nothing has changed but it feels good yet kind of strange.
I had a small moment of testing my okayness this morning.
I stumbled across the Facebook of an ex close friend, someone I had issues with at school and was one of the main reasons I left school friendless. I saw pictures of her graduation and how amazingly she has done. Before last week this wouldn't have made my mood more worse but it definitely wouldn't have helped but today I kind of felt happy for her/ didn't really care!
It was such a weird moment for me!
How's everyone?
I had a small moment of testing my okayness this morning.
I stumbled across the Facebook of an ex close friend, someone I had issues with at school and was one of the main reasons I left school friendless. I saw pictures of her graduation and how amazingly she has done. Before last week this wouldn't have made my mood more worse but it definitely wouldn't have helped but today I kind of felt happy for her/ didn't really care!
It was such a weird moment for me!
How's everyone?
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Original post by PonchoKid
sorry to hear about your loss. We're all here for you. Hope tomorrow night is better. xPosted from TSR Mobile
Original post by PonchoKid
I'm so sorry to hear that
. I'm here if you want to talk about anything. Original post by Anonymous
Oh man, today I realized that part of the reason I am scared of applying to internships and jobs is because I'm a lazy, immature loser. I don't even know why, for school uni I most often did hard work, and I achieved things. And since January I work part time twice a week full days so I mean 2/7 days a week to 5/7 days a week should be ok. But it's like my subconscious does not want to grow up. All the academic achievements mean nothing if I don't actually at least try applying
I am not sure about your situation but having a mental illness makes motivating yourself a lot more harder. Your clearly capable of achieving things so I wouldn't say you're a lazy person and you're certainly not a loser... it's just hard. I'm kind of similar... worked super hard and school and college but kind of gave up at uni and just went through the motions.
Is there anyone that can help you to apply... a friend or family? Sometimes having support can help motivate you. Then again there is no harm in taking a break for a bit... You just need to think about what is best for you.
Good luck with whatever you decide
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Original post by 08batee
So sorry to hear that, I feel a bit the same I know the last thing you probably wanna do is talk to me, but feel free to PM or catch me on Skype (though I barely go on at the moment) any time. Hope things improve and it's just a blip
I know the last thing you probably wanna do is talk to me, but feel free to PM or catch me on Skype (though I barely go on at the moment) any time. Hope things improve and it's just a blip Thanks hun. Don't have a computer atm so typing is too much effort to be worth it mostly.. sorry you're feeling low as well.
Original post by superwolf
Is there anything you can do to change your circumstances and see if that has an effect? Hope things start looking up soon.
Is there anything you can do to change your circumstances and see if that has an effect? Hope things start looking up soon. Going to stay with Nut. for a few days next week so I can have some space to myself and safe-time. It's only a few days though and I still have over 2 months of this before I can go back to uni. Moaning about my family makes me totally horrible. But my mum is really unhelpful and knows how weak i am. My sister is horrible to me because she can see straight through to what a **** person I am. My brother is alright just drug addiction makes him so unpredictable and violence prone. And I hate myself for feeling so unsafe around my dad.
Original post by danny111
That's not good. Did anything change in your life that makes this a lasting thing?
I hope you can turn it around soon! Do you know when your next CBT will be? If not can you make an appointment?
I hope you can turn it around soon! Do you know when your next CBT will be? If not can you make an appointment?
Came home from uni a bit over a month ago. Can't go back until early October. Have been clinically depressed for over 5 years so it was already a lasting thing, but my current med combination took me from people talking about hospital to 'only' moderate depression. I'm suicidal again so think I'm back at severe. Not extreme (according to my psychiatrist/therapist's system, extreme is as bad as it gets and when hospital starts getting talked about) but like.. I know I'm not far away. And I dunno how I went from slowly getting better to getting **** again, or if it's my fault. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. I don't know.
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Original post by asdfgah
Thanks hun. Don't have a computer atm so typing is too much effort to be worth it mostly.. sorry you're feeling low as well.
Going to stay with Nut. for a few days next week so I can have some space to myself and safe-time. It's only a few days though and I still have over 2 months of this before I can go back to uni. Moaning about my family makes me totally horrible. But my mum is really unhelpful and knows how weak i am. My sister is horrible to me because she can see straight through to what a **** person I am. My brother is alright just drug addiction makes him so unpredictable and violence prone. And I hate myself for feeling so unsafe around my dad.
Came home from uni a bit over a month ago. Can't go back until early August. Have been clinically depressed for over 5 years so it was already a lasting thing, but my current med combination took me from people talking about hospital to 'only' moderate depression. I'm suicidal again so think I'm back at severe. Not extreme (according to my psychiatrist/therapist's system, extreme is as bad as it gets and when hospital starts getting talked about) but like.. I know I'm not far away. And I dunno how I went from slowly getting better to getting **** again, or if it's my fault. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. I don't know.
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Going to stay with Nut. for a few days next week so I can have some space to myself and safe-time. It's only a few days though and I still have over 2 months of this before I can go back to uni. Moaning about my family makes me totally horrible. But my mum is really unhelpful and knows how weak i am. My sister is horrible to me because she can see straight through to what a **** person I am. My brother is alright just drug addiction makes him so unpredictable and violence prone. And I hate myself for feeling so unsafe around my dad.
Came home from uni a bit over a month ago. Can't go back until early August. Have been clinically depressed for over 5 years so it was already a lasting thing, but my current med combination took me from people talking about hospital to 'only' moderate depression. I'm suicidal again so think I'm back at severe. Not extreme (according to my psychiatrist/therapist's system, extreme is as bad as it gets and when hospital starts getting talked about) but like.. I know I'm not far away. And I dunno how I went from slowly getting better to getting **** again, or if it's my fault. Maybe I didn't try hard enough. I don't know.
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Don't say that. I am having a similar problem of not trying hard enough, but I think I can't try any harder without breaking down and crying.
And yes 5 years is a lasting thing then, I can't even imagine what that must be like
so yes, living with that for 5 years, I think you try hard enough! I really do Original post by danny111
Don't say that. I am having a similar problem of not trying hard enough, but I think I can't try any harder without breaking down and crying.
And yes 5 years is a lasting thing then, I can't even imagine what that must be like so yes, living with that for 5 years, I think you try hard enough! I really do
And yes 5 years is a lasting thing then, I can't even imagine what that must be like
so yes, living with that for 5 years, I think you try hard enough! I really do Just realised I wrote early August. I wish, haha. Meant early October, though my friend is leaving me the key to her flat when she goes on holiday so I can theoretically go back earlier if home is unbearable. Also forgot to answer your question about cbt. I have an appointment in a week.
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Original post by luno
I mentioned in a reply to Sultana how I have been feeling 'ok' since last week. Nothing has changed but it feels good yet kind of strange.
I had a small moment of testing my okayness this morning.
I stumbled across the Facebook of an ex close friend, someone I had issues with at school and was one of the main reasons I left school friendless. I saw pictures of her graduation and how amazingly she has done. Before last week this wouldn't have made my mood more worse but it definitely wouldn't have helped but today I kind of felt happy for her/ didn't really care!
It was such a weird moment for me!
How's everyone?
I had a small moment of testing my okayness this morning.
I stumbled across the Facebook of an ex close friend, someone I had issues with at school and was one of the main reasons I left school friendless. I saw pictures of her graduation and how amazingly she has done. Before last week this wouldn't have made my mood more worse but it definitely wouldn't have helped but today I kind of felt happy for her/ didn't really care!
It was such a weird moment for me!
How's everyone?
Really good to hear you're still doing ok, and that you're not letting little things bring you down.
I'm not doing too great - having a housing crisis that I can't do much to sort out, have to wait for other people to make their moves, and it's really stressing me out. And stressed superwolf is invariably depressed superwolf.
Original post by asdfgah
Going to stay with Nut. for a few days next week so I can have some space to myself and safe-time. It's only a few days though and I still have over 2 months of this before I can go back to uni. Moaning about my family makes me totally horrible. But my mum is really unhelpful and knows how weak i am. My sister is horrible to me because she can see straight through to what a **** person I am. My brother is alright just drug addiction makes him so unpredictable and violence prone. And I hate myself for feeling so unsafe around my dad.
Ooh, say hi from me - I miss having her around.
Hmm, is a tricky one to sort out. The only thing I can think of to get you away easily is getting some kind of residential job - I once did a stint at a summer camp for foreign kids, and food and board was included. I was teaching English, but they had pastoral care people too.
And you're not a **** person - you are on my top 10 list of internet people I want to meet and give a massive hug. And that's a very exclusive list to be on.
Original post by asdfgah
Just realised I wrote early August. I wish, haha. Meant early October, though my friend is leaving me the key to her flat when she goes on holiday so I can theoretically go back earlier if home is unbearable. Also forgot to answer your question about cbt. I have an appointment in a week.
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Just realised I wrote early August. I wish, haha. Meant early October, though my friend is leaving me the key to her flat when she goes on holiday so I can theoretically go back earlier if home is unbearable. Also forgot to answer your question about cbt. I have an appointment in a week.
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Well next week is good, hopefully that will help!
And nice, I think that can give a bit of peace of mind if you know you can go back earlier if you wanted to
