Basically, I`ve struggled making friends at uni and although I`ve made some casual friends there`s no one for me to move in with for second year. I don`t really want to move in to a house with people I`ve never met so will likely be going into private accommodation. It`s not what i want but there`s not really a choice, problem is because of my anxiety I can`t really be bothered to go through the whole meeting new flat mates again (although it could be a good thing).
This has really taken away alot of motivation for to come back next year so I`m actually considering dropping out although my course is ok and I would like the degree. At home, my grandparents recently passed away (mum`s side) and she`s been borderline suicidal for months now. Everytime I phone home she basically talks about how she doesn`t want to live anymore, in addition to this both my dad and my brother have been diagnosed with a heart disease (cardiomyopathy? or something).
Anyway, I don`t know whether i should stick with Uni or whether I should go home as my family are struggling a lot and I`m not enjoying it quite as much as I thought I would. The main issue for me is the money issue of dropping out as that`s a it`s to throw away and I definitely won`t be coming back as I`ve already taken a gap year. Sorry it`s so long but any advice would be appreciated.