So basically I have been struggling mentally a bit for quite a few years already, but I can't tell if it is something normal / just a teenage-angsty phase that I will grow out of, or it is something that I should not be brushing aside.
It started when I began year 10 (I am 19 now). my motivation suddenly disappeared. I couldn't care about most things I just didn't give a damn anymore. Unless something NEEDS to be done (homework and exams etc, I still do quite well academically) I would find a million excuses to avoid responsibilities. Every single day I dreaded school knowing that I would have to make the effort to take a 1 hour bus ride and interact with people. Too much work. Previously I tried hard to stay connected with my friends, even though I find socialising excruciatingly exhausting, I began to isolate myself from my friends completely. Hobbies became chores. Meeting people became chores. I don't even have the energy to keep conversations going anymore.
Whenever there is an event coming up, be it a quick meet-up with an acquaintance or freshers week, I will spend days prior to that event worrying about it and thinking what would go wrong. I remember spending the entire week before a Chinese speaking exam worrying about it and crying the night before because it involved a group discussion lol. I also spent another week worrying all day and night because I would be seeing people that I am not familiar with while seeing a friend off in an airport at the end of that week. The prospect of having to make the effort alone is enough to throw me into a pit of emotional despair.
There are good days and bad days - good days happen during holidays when there are 0 responsibilities and there is no need to leave the house at all; bad days can get quite bad to the point where I'll just lie on the floor in my room sobbing about my existence for an hour.
I can't really tell if this is normal or not, because I assume this is something that everyone will experience at some point in their lives. Maybe this is just a low point of my life that lasts a few years, and things might pick themselves up eventually. But I don't know.
So, all things considered, should I be worried, or should I just let things roll and see how they turn out?