I would love to know the OPs situation in life now. Reading all these replies and knowing there are others out there, with the EXACT same or even slightly worse struggles in life has weirdly given some hope to mine. Only difference maybe? I was a top achiever in school (an A* student) and have a science degree. I had high hopes and so did everyone around me for me. My main downfall was not knowing what to do in life, no aim or ambition, leading to studying something I had just picked at the last minute randomly. Obviously hated the course and dropped out, now left stranded doing nothing in life, living this way for nearly 3 years now, witnessing all my 'former friends' succeed and progress in life. Because of this, my biggest issue now - I feel left too far behind, it's too late in life to start something else, especially not knowing what in the world to do still. No confidence or self-esteem, scared to apply to anything new, put down when reading job specifications since I have no experience in anything. How to explain to potential employers about the wasted last few years? They wouldn't want a no lifer who has no ambition or will to try or evidence of any interest in anything. I have a few friends I still talk to on occasion, but never really share my feelings, because I will seem an even bigger loser- they'd never understand the mental issues and just think I'm being lazy or not trying, so no point. Still live at home with parents who try their best to motivate and support me but I see the hurt in their eyes knowing what a failure I have been in life. I am 25 and have just passed my third year of living my life in this way. Had so much potential, so popular in school, good all round in everything from studying, competitive sports and gaming, arts and crafts, good physicality and looks etc. Such high hopes breezing through my school years, now feel like a fully grown potato, lost all my interests and skills in my forever lasting purple patch. Feel so lost. Never had the balls for suicide after considering it a few times. But like I said, still fell 0.1% better knowing there's others out there. If only someone had the secret recipe to escape and wouldn't mind sharing..