Feel really just alone. I am trying to accept the advice of that psychiatrist like seriously, I am, maybe he is right, but it's so hard, lmao. I think I am basically toxic for everyone, Ts got 136d again because I called the police on her. E is being moved from Scotland back down here because the trust messed up with the funding and I hope she doesn't go to the same place A got meningitis because I don't think that will be good, lol...So will probably have no friends to see on Sunday, which is fine I guess, I doubt I'll be up for much anyway. That probably sounds selfish. But I struggle around this time of year, so I wanted to try and change that, but like...ok, maybe not. Key worker still hasn't got back to me, specialists don't really know what they're doing with EDS and its related ****ery, no pain management, nothing. Nothing. Idk really. I think I'll just sleep for the weekend, I don't want to do anything anyway, whatever.
Was talking to S earlier about how much ****ery has gone on since A died, and like I'm just tired. I wish everyone would just chill, lol. I know that's not how mental health works so don't come for me, but I'm fed up of the constant drama. Just makes me want to avoid everyone even more tbh.