So as some may notice I've been all over TSR in the past month or two about whether to apply for music at Oxford or Cambridge, and whether to apply for history at either as well. Being a 23 year old from the U.S. only further complicates my choices and application, but I'm 100% positive I want to apply and only left it so late as I was unaware of the possibility of my applying until August. Though the discrepancy between which university has plagued me, I've realised now that it's more about which course.
I am certain that if I were to go for history I would apply to Oxford because they administer the HAT, which gives me a much stronger chance in light of my academic past. I've been advised by Harris Manchester and Wadham (all other colleges have been a bit stuffy with me) that my background is sufficient and the HAT would give me a chance to shine for history. In terms of music, most of the feedback I have gotten would imply that Cambridge suits me more for music as it seems to be slightly more practical and composition inclusive.... that and more musicians I know have attended. Clare and King's are the two I favor in terms of colleges. Below I'll list my areas of interest/strength in each subject:
Music: Composition (I want to be a composer, but in a tonal sense. I really can't stand serialism and 20th century music for the most part), film music, early music (renaissance especially), cultural studies, arranging, romantic period music, world music, some experimental (with the exception of John Cage and the like), and peformance.... but not classical performance. My fear with music is that my background is mostly non classical, I grew up playing in bands as a guitarist and keyboardist, mostly rock/pop/indie bands. I do however love a lot of classical music and when I compose it is often in a classical vein as I like to use strings. My theory is far from perfect, but I know the essentials. While I do fear being not as classically trained as many applicants, I do feel my overall musicianship is strong and I know without a doubt my end goal is to be a successful musician composer.... in an ideal world composing more classically for films and concert hall while playing in contemporary bands on the side.
History: German history, the interwar period, second world war, first world war, Tudor England, British monarchy, The EU, European Fascism, The Soviet Union, American Revolution, English Civil War, and probably more I'm forgetting. With studying history it's less about any specific career goal, but more about that I love history and find it fascinating. I do find music fascinating equally, but have mixed experiences in terms of formal study.
In terms of my application I have impressive work experience for both history and music, more recently working for Historic Royal Palaces in London as a historical guide and a brief internship in the House of Commons. For music I've worked as a music teacher on and off, but my educational background is more controversial if I can say so. After graduating from American high school I took a semester off to play in bands, and then I briefly took classes at a local college in International Politics, Political Philosophy and German (earning decent grades with each) before applying to study music in the UK. I completed a one year foundation degree in Music and Sound Technology at the Liverpool Institute for Performing Arts where I got good grades, but found the course to popular music focused. I then applied to do a Music degree at Goldsmiths but dropped out of the course after only 6 months as I found it completely focused on atonal composition and serialism as well as classical performance which I'm not keen on. After dropping out I returned back to the U.S. where I've been working independently on music and working at a local bookstore, but I'm positive I want to return to education back in the UK which is more or less where my life is now....
But I'm sincerely struggling with which subject to pursue. History (and History/Politics) have been encouraging at Oxford, while Music at Cambridge have been mostly encouraging as well (I can't say the same for music at Oxford really, but I think my constant enquiries irked them). Some of you may say don't go for oxbridge, but I've been to both and I love the environments, so I'm intent to try even though the deadline is fast approaching. I've been working on personal statements for either, but, I'm very anxious about which to pursue as for some reasons I feel I'd be stronger for History (HAT, interviews perhaps) and others for music (foundation degree, career goals, talent aside from classical peformance and hardcore theory), so I just don't know. I am resolved that this will be my last post on the matter because the deadline is in a little over a week now. Insane perhaps, but it's no entirely my fault... though my indecision is my greatest weakness.
P.S. I do not intend to solely apply to Oxbridge, but it is the bane of my indecision at present.