Hi guys, I'm new to the forum so please forgive me if this is in the wrong space!
I am currently studying at MMU Cheshire on a Dance course, it's getting close to the end of my second term as a second year. The thing is, my passions and career goals have completely shifted.
I've always had a huge interest and passion for History, I read a lot of books on a variety of topics especially that of British History and I spend a lot of my time watching documentaries and reading online articles. Until now I wanted this as nothing more than a hobby, but this year I've come to realise that my career in dance or the arts isn't something I wish to pursue further. This isn't a whim and I've given it a lot of thought, hence why I'm here searching for some help and answers.
As a school kid during my GCSE's I chose Drama and Art as my chosen subjects at school, during the first week of year 10 pursuing these classes I asked if I could transfer to History instead of Drama but my teachers just kept telling me 'stick it out', 'you'll like it eventually!' and a lot of other nonsense. I knew History was on the timetable at the same time as Drama and that the class wasn't full because I had friends in the History classes, and I most certainly was capable of taking a History class. But no, I was forced to continue with Drama for the final two years of GCSE.
During school I was also bullied intensely and so I wanted to get out of there asap, after securing an A* in Drama I continued onto a Performing Arts course and subsequently ended up on the Dance course I am on now. It was only during the end of my first year I started having doubts about continuing with Dance, but I was too scared to quit University in fear of regretting the decision. Now in second year I fear it's too late to quit and start a new undergraduate degree because I most certainly would not be able to finance my own education.
I truly want to start studying History in some form or another but I have no idea how to go about it, when I think I've solved my issue I always hit a wall.
I found out that a few Universities do Post Graduate Certificates which can be used as a sort of conversion course for those who (like me) have never studied into certain subjects before. The issue is I can't find any help in terms of how to fund such courses, and the majority of them are part time which leads me to worry about accommodation as I come from the middle of nowhere and wouldn't be able to commute 2-3 hours every time I have a class.
I went to the Careers Advisers at my University but they weren't particularly helpful...they told me to 'start a blog' and to make my dance dissertation somehow related to History and then I might get onto an MA regardless of no experience. As much as I hope that's true...I'd also love to do the Post Graduate Certificate just to gain some valuable experience in my studies first before pursuing an MA.
It's all so difficult and stressing me out to the max, my insecurities about my future is causing so many mental health issues and I'm beginning to just hate being at University because I feel like it will lead me nowhere.
Any advice after reading all that? I'd love some opinions and ideas on where I can go next?