I am 19 and female.
From year 8 - now I have dealt with mental health problems, depression and anxiety. Not only that I have low iron which also caused me anxiety, depression, no energy, no motivation and tiredness. I also have some issues with not being able to control anger. I get comments made about my height all the time, paleness and the fact that I'm quiet. I also have very bad memory.
Due to all of these problems I couldn't cope and failed all of my GCSEs, they are all under C/4 grade, I have a lot of Us. I still went to college to do entry level 3 maths and English functional skills and animal care. I passed then left due to severe anxiety, took a few months out, got a Christmas job, got another job doing doggy daycare, left the Christmas job, went back to college to do level 1 English and maths. I'm still doing that now and doggy daycare. I have volunteer experience in 3 different animal places.
I applied for a job at a Cattery place, I have a trial, I have a good and bad feeling about it, I'm so close to getting my dream job, I've wanted to work with animals from a very young age, I'm just so scared that I won't get it, if I don't I'm not sure what I'll do, I'll lose all hope, even though I do doggy daycare it's only 1 dog and I can't get anymore clients, no one is replying to me, I also think the Cattery job is better for my future and when I finish college there's a chance I go full time and even though the pay isn't great the atmosphere is lovely there, everyone gets on, everyone is happy, everyone loves the job. I'm terrified I won't get it and at the same time I believe I might just get it, I actually volunteered there before but a few years ago.
I'm not sure how to feel positive, the fact that I feel scared that I won't get the job rather than feeling like I will scares me a little, I'm incapable of staying positive. I want to be open, easy to talk to, confident and happy and feel great about myself, be able to get the job I've always wanted. How do I stay positive about my life? Stay hopeful about my future? How do I ease anxiety?
No negative responses please.
I might soon be doing a pre access course to get my GCSEs. I just want a good future.
I also hate rich people, I have those kids who enjoy life without worrying about money, the nice big houses and cars, the travelling, all the things I can't do and never had. My cousins are rich and I hate them for having everything I don't, I have always had things like phones, laptops, TV, PlayStation, holidays in the UK, so I definitely am privileged in some ways and don't consider myself poor, maybe lower middle class, we did lose our home but bounced back, we live in a council house but it's very nice, one of my parents lost their job through no fault of their own. I don't mind the area I live in but it's considered disadvantaged which I don't like, I don't think I am disadvantaged but I know there are people here worse off, lovely people though, my cousins are horrible. We also have cars and jobs but not high paying jobs.
Anyway how do I stay positive?