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Sorry about yesterday or whenever it was - brain wasn't working. Back to functioning order today and am able to write you a decent reply
Background context to my post:
Based on my own three years at Oxford and my experiences of telling both tutors and fellow students about my missed grades, and muddling through the heavy workload that comes with an Oxford degree, I'd like to reassure you that:
1. While your fears about being "inadequate and academically unable to take on an Oxford degree" are common for someone in your position,
they are unfounded. Oxbridge have long known that A Level grades (or equivalents) aren't the best measure of someone's intelligence. One B at A Level doesn't define you at all - even if it was in a facilitating subject like History! It does not mean you've failed or that you are suddenly somehow not "worthy" (what does that even mean in this context?!?!?!
) of your Oxford place. You are still as intelligent as you were the day before your results - one B does not change that at all
You will not have to do extra work to "prove" yourself. In fact, you don't need to do ANYTHING to prove yourself to your tutors, your peers, or yourself.
2. Oxbridge tutors very rarely get it wrong. They have sifted through God-knows-how-many UCAS applications, screened out people via admissions tests, interviewed some candidates and decided that YOU, above loads of others, deserved the offer/place. As you're of course aware, when you missed your grades, they were under no obligation to take you - but they did "anyway"! This means they really like you and really believe in your capabilities or potential. If your LNAT results really were as average as you say, then you must have
seriously impressed them to pull off this feat!
3. You are NOT inferior to any of your peers who achieved their offer grades. One or two ****ers possibly might get a bit snooty about it, granted. If that happens, you *****slap them (metaphorically. Poss literally
) and don't pay any attention to them whatsoever. If it becomes a point for long-term bullying, then report it. Out of everyone who knew me/about my grades, only one person was rude to me about my grades - and that was purely because he was insecure about his own AS Level grades! Once I eventually reported his behaviour, it was taken very seriously and dealt with exceedingly swiftly. I was asked if I would be happy if that person "disappeared" from Oxford (i.e. got "sent down" or expelled). I said I didn't want that, so he remained. But this shows that anyone belittling you will not be tolerated by your college tutors, or your college/faculty in general!
4. Kinda related to points 1 and 2 - imposter syndrome is INCREDIBLY common at Oxford. It's often the "elephant in the room", in that people are scared to talk about it - to be seen as vulnerable, struggling and/or not entirely "getting"/"enjoying" the "student experience". But I'll bet you hands down a LOT of money that 95% (if not more) of your peers will also have imposter syndrome. It goes with the territory. That said: just because you feel this way
now, it (a) doesn't mean it's true, or (b) mean you will feel like this forever. As you grow in confidence, you will see that this is just a inconsequential blip.
I don't believe law is a subject where there's an A Level "cut-off" thing for jobs, like there is in investment banking, for example. In any case, no one in their right mind is going to sneer at AAB if you've got a good (by which I mean, 2.1 or First) degree from Oxford. It is THE place to be for law (along with The Other Place
). You will be part of the creme de la creme!
My honest advice (though this might seem a bit daunting) is to ask your college tutors early on why they decided to take you anyway. I put up with a whole year of racist, misogynist, class-ist bullying from the aforementioned peer who took issue with me. I let him make me feel inferior, unworthy, unwanted and like some godforsaken "tick-box" candidate who got in due to being a minority in various senses. When I
finally cracked at the very end of my first year and blurted out what had been happening to my tutor and said "I don't know why I'm here", he was SO upset that I'd been feeling this way and never told him!
He didn't even remember me missing my grades, let alone sit there a whole academic year thinking "why did I take her in without the grades?!?"
So basically, I'd got into a right tizz for no reason whatsoever
DON'T BE LIKE ME! Be assertive, be confident, own your grades and hold your head high
If it would help to PM me, just drop me a line with a reminder of who you are/your OP