Don’t know what to

I am 19 years old and I have no idea what to do with my life. Because of this, I am depressed, lacking motivation and have no direction in life.

I just feel so crap at now, it's hard to focus properly right now. I have no one to turn to for advice, no one understands and just thinks I am lazy etc.

I live with my parents, but I don't want to be obviously, I would much rather be out in the real world on my own living an independent life. I feel like a ****ing loser to be 19, living at home with parents and unemployed, it's a **** situation to be in but people don't understand when you are demotivated how hard it is on a person.

Sometimes I just feel like crying. I am a grown 19 year old adult and I want to cry. I have a small social life, It’s only very few friends because I have grown apart and distanced myself from people, I go to college but it’s not 7 days a week.

Do I want this life? Of course I don't, but I don't know how to change. Each day, week, month seems to pass so fast and next thing I am a year older with still no direction.

I am frustrated and annoyed at myself too for not changing, but it's hard when you have nothing worthwhile or good in your life. Very little family, hardly any friends, no girlfriend or even female acquaintances, no job, no career or life goals etc.

What do I do? All I can do is ask questions on here to a bunch of strangers who don't really know, nor care too much, but I have no one else to turn to, so...

I am 19 years old and I have no idea what to do with my life. Because of this, I am depressed, lacking motivation and have no direction in life.

I just feel so crap at now, it's hard to focus properly right now. I have no one to turn to for advice, no one understands and just thinks I am lazy etc.

I live with my parents, but I don't want to be obviously, I would much rather be out in the real world on my own living an independent life. I feel like a ****ing loser to be 19, living at home with parents and unemployed, it's a **** situation to be in but people don't understand when you are demotivated how hard it is on a person.

Sometimes I just feel like crying. I am a grown 19 year old adult and I want to cry. I have a small social life, It’s only very few friends because I have grown apart and distanced myself from people, I go to college but it’s not 7 days a week.

Do I want this life? Of course I don't, but I don't know how to change. Each day, week, month seems to pass so fast and next thing I am a year older with still no direction.

I am frustrated and annoyed at myself too for not changing, but it's hard when you have nothing worthwhile or good in your life. Very little family, hardly any friends, no girlfriend or even female acquaintances, no job, no career or life goals etc.

What do I do? All I can do is ask questions on here to a bunch of strangers who don't really know, nor care too much, but I have no one else to turn to, so...