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feel like such a tool. there are people dealing with actual, tangible problems and here's me struggling to get out of bed because of some silly intrusive thoughts. so pathetic.
Original post by Anonymous
feel like such a tool. there are people dealing with actual, tangible problems and here's me struggling to get out of bed because of some silly intrusive thoughts. so pathetic.

Your not a tool at all! Intrusive thoughts can be horriffic and debilitating, and depending what they are can make your terrified to leave your bed in fear of acting on those thoughts. Try not to beat yourself up, give yourself time to just be. Your just as worthy as anyone else
Original post by PonchoKid
Your not a tool at all! Intrusive thoughts can be horriffic and debilitating, and depending what they are can make your terrified to leave your bed in fear of acting on those thoughts. Try not to beat yourself up, give yourself time to just be. Your just as worthy as anyone else

Thank you. I just wish I knew why I get them and what they are due to, because I'm not convinced it's a mood thing any more. Just need this psych appointment to happen already... Hope you are doing OK x

And in other news, I am possibly heading into another hyper episode (and I'm loving it)
Something happened today and I feel like what's the ****ing point. I feel misunderstood so might as well pretend like my feelings don't matter
Original post by Anonymous
Something happened today and I feel like what's the ****ing point. I feel misunderstood so might as well pretend like my feelings don't matter

Your feelings matter, always. I hope you are OK :hugs:
Original post by Anonymous
Thank you. I just wish I knew why I get them and what they are due to, because I'm not convinced it's a mood thing any more. Just need this psych appointment to happen already... Hope you are doing OK x

And in other news, I am possibly heading into another hyper episode (and I'm loving it)

I think a lot of people get intrusive thoughts, it just depends on the severity. I get intrusive thoughts every day, but when im ill they are SO much worse and the urge to act on the them is so much greater. But when im not ill i catch myself in the moment and think "no its just a thought"

Have you had an appoint through yet, or are you still waiting to be assigned?
Original post by Anonymous
:hugs:


Original post by PonchoKid
PCOS is aweful, you have my full sympethies!
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Doing pretty well currently i think, enjoying placement at least! But badly went over on my ankle yesterday and they said iv badly sprained it but also potentially fractured my foot :redface: i had it xrayed and she could see anything that jumped out to her, but wants me to wait for the full report to come through just in case:doh:
At a big confrence tomorrow too so gotta hobble around that!


Thank you both :hugs: :heart:
Original post by PonchoKid
I think a lot of people get intrusive thoughts, it just depends on the severity. I get intrusive thoughts every day, but when im ill they are SO much worse and the urge to act on the them is so much greater. But when im not ill i catch myself in the moment and think "no its just a thought"

Have you had an appoint through yet, or are you still waiting to be assigned?

I only have them when I'm unwell but when I do have them, they usually mean I can't do anything that requires me to concentrate. I know these particular thoughts are just intrusive thoughts but the distress that comes with them is such a head ****. Fluoxetine completely took them away for me but don't really want to go back on it for other reasons.

I have a private appointment in January. No word from the NHS yet.
Watching someone I went to school with chairing a conference. He used to sit behind me in class and always did slightly worse than me and we had a bit of good rivalry going on. Now the dude is thriving in his career and has a a beautiful family. My biggest achievement in the last 2 years? Cleaning the ******* bathroom 😀. What a joke has my life become ROFL
Original post by Anonymous
I only have them when I'm unwell but when I do have them, they usually mean I can't do anything that requires me to concentrate. I know these particular thoughts are just intrusive thoughts but the distress that comes with them is such a head ****. Fluoxetine completely took them away for me but don't really want to go back on it for other reasons.

I have a private appointment in January. No word from the NHS yet.

Like i say intrusive thoughts can be horrifically debilitating, and i know its hard but try not to feel patetic for not being able to do anything while having them. One nurse said they are a form of OCD, the compulsive side.
I imagine you have, but have you tried any other meds?

Hopefully your hear from the NHS soon? And you can hopefully not struggle too much before january, but you seem to rapid cycle dont you?
Original post by PonchoKid
Like i say intrusive thoughts can be horrifically debilitating, and i know its hard but try not to feel patetic for not being able to do anything while having them. One nurse said they are a form of OCD, the compulsive side.
I imagine you have, but have you tried any other meds?

Hopefully your hear from the NHS soon? And you can hopefully not struggle too much before january, but you seem to rapid cycle dont you?

Thank you. *Yeah, I do wonder if it could maybe be an OCD thing - might explain why fluoxetine helped so much despite not making a huge difference to mood. *I have only been on fluoxetine and keen to avoid meds unless things are absolutely dire, tbh. *GP thinks I would probably need a mood stabiliser and they can’t prescibe that without secondary care advice, so...

I was referred in July but I don’t think we have a psychiatrist in our locality currently so Idk how long it will take…. I suspect I’m very low priority. *I didn’t used to rapid cycle but yeah, seem to be cycling quite a bit since June . *Might just be normal mood variation but that’s something a psychiatrist needs to decide - so frustrating that even paying won’t get me seen quickly :frown:. It has taken me years to allow myself ask for help and when I have, it still isn’t getting me anywhere...
Original post by Anonymous
Thank you. *Yeah, I do wonder if it could maybe be an OCD thing - might explain why fluoxetine helped so much despite not making a huge difference to mood. *I have only been on fluoxetine and keen to avoid meds unless things are absolutely dire, tbh. *GP thinks I would probably need a mood stabiliser and they can’t prescibe that without secondary care advice, so...

I was referred in July but I don’t think we have a psychiatrist in our locality currently so Idk how long it will take…. I suspect I’m very low priority. *I didn’t used to rapid cycle but yeah, seem to be cycling quite a bit since June . *Might just be normal mood variation but that’s something a psychiatrist needs to decide - so frustrating that even paying won’t get me seen quickly :frown:. It has taken me years to allow myself ask for help and when I have, it still isn’t getting me anywhere...

Yeah, she said essentially its a compulsion which you feel the need to fulfil, which makes complete sense in the moment to stop the intrusive thought. After she told me that i understood them much better, dont get me wrong when i was very ill it was still very real and i felt the only way to stop it was to fulfil the thought, and they were horrific.
Not so fun fact, that intrusive thoughts come in all shapes and sizes, they can be a thought, a bit of a internal monologue type thing, or like i get, a visual thought, so i see a "video" of me completing the thought. They are all as horrific and debilitating.

Would you be open to a mood stabiliser if it was suggested by a psych? And have you discussed with your GP about prescribing medication from a private psych?

Thats mad theres no psych in your area 🙈
Everyone cycles through moods, it depends how extreme your moods are, and from what you say your moods are more extreme than "normal" mood fluctuations.
Original post by PonchoKid
Yeah, she said essentially its a compulsion which you feel the need to fulfil, which makes complete sense in the moment to stop the intrusive thought. After she told me that i understood them much better, dont get me wrong when i was very ill it was still very real and i felt the only way to stop it was to fulfil the thought, and they were horrific.
Not so fun fact, that intrusive thoughts come in all shapes and sizes, they can be a thought, a bit of a internal monologue type thing, or like i get, a visual thought, so i see a "video" of me completing the thought. They are all as horrific and debilitating.

Would you be open to a mood stabiliser if it was suggested by a psych? And have you discussed with your GP about prescribing medication from a private psych?

Thats mad theres no psych in your area 🙈
Everyone cycles through moods, it depends how extreme your moods are, and from what you say your moods are more extreme than "normal" mood fluctuations.

Yeah, that’s pretty much what it feels like. *I have times when I’m actually thinking/planning things and then I have intrusive thoughts which *don’t feel like my thoughts and are so much more distressing - the former I feel in control of, the latter I don’t. I’m sorry you get these too, they really suck :frown:

I would be open to a mood stabiliser if they suggested it, but not straight away (unless they were threatening with the MH act; which they obviously wouldn’t lol). *For now, I want to know if I actually have a diagnosis and if I do, to use that to have adjustments at work once I get a permanent job again to see if that makes things more managable (I only care about this affecting work; the rest of my life doesn’t really matter). *If I’m still struggling despite adjustments, I will reluctantly consider meds.

I’m pretty sure my GP would prescribe from a private psych - she was strongly encouraging me to go private and she is quite understanding of my situation. *Plus the psych I will be seeing primarily works in the NHS so hopefully that will make his assessment seem more “credible”, for want of a better word.

Yeah, it is mental. *When my GP was doing the referral, she said they were in the process of recruiting one. *The irony is that if I see an NHS psych, they are likely to be a locum who may not have even spent a day working in the NHS before this job, yet their assessment might to carry more weight than the assesment of the private psych who has trained in the UK and works in a different area of the same health board when not doing private work…

Idk, I’m struggling a lot to be objective about my mood and what’s normal or not. *I really hope that getting a psych opinion will put things into perspective. *But I will probably still gaslight myself if I have a diagnosis - the opinion of 3 GPs about me definitely having a depressive illness hasn’t really helped :/

Sorry for the rambling. My mind is racing a lot :redface:
Whatever state I have going right now, I'm bloody loving it. I haven't been able to tidy or clean for months and now half my flat is spotless. I just need this to last, please! I can't get enough of this motivation and productivity!
Just got moaned at for being ‘too tired’ and that I ‘shouldn’t be so tired at your age’ :facepalm: like bruh studying, working and suffering with MH takes it out of me, or do you conveniently ‘forget’ I suffer with MH and it drains me? -.-
Genuinely starting to feel like the person I used to be again. It's nice being so motivated and productive.
Original post by Anonymous
Genuinely starting to feel like the person I used to be again. It's nice being so motivated and productive.


:hugs:
Seem to be snapping out of my hyperenergetic episode and perhaps it wasn't as benign as I thought it was :/
I'm pretty convinced that what I am going through right now is hypomania and I don't know what I'm supposed to about it.
Original post by Anonymous
I'm pretty convinced that what I am going through right now is hypomania and I don't know what I'm supposed to about it.

Just try to keep things in check and try and prevent yourself from going too high. The higher you get, the worse the crash - or at least that's been my experience of hypomania over the years anyway :console:

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