Trying to work is just draining me so much. Feel like maybe I'm not well enough to be here doing my degree atm, but I'm also SO close to the end of the year and I don't want to have to do it all again. So I'm trying. It's just like as I'm writing the essay all the energy from my brain is seeping out all over the paper and I'm all wobbly and barely standing up as it is so by the end I might just be all collapsed from the effort. It shouldn't take so much effort to do this and it's worrying me cos I thought I was doing better and now I'm wondering if I'm slipping back deeper into the depressive episode. Been at moderate for a couple of weeks and I don't wanna get all severe again but my voice is slowing down and my appetite has gone which are bad signs. It doesn't make sense though. I swear when you get better you're meant to travel up in a vaguely straight line not all oscillate and wobble all over the place and keep slipping back down again (even though my therapist did say that's how she expected it to go. So I guess I should have listened to the voice of experience). Bleh.