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Original post by danny111
Why is life so hard?
it will get better
Original post by Noodlzzz it will get better
it will get betterOriginal post by 08batee 
Thank you guys!
Writing on my master thesis, and it's silly. I have found a way around the hard part and now I just have to write. But I find that so incredibly hard. I just want to go lie in bed or sleep in the sun in the garden. Maybe read a book while dosing off. Doing nothing. I don't even know why. I guess I'm scared of life, if I finish the thesis the next thing is to look for internships/jobs and that scares me too. But there is no reason to, I 'm a nice guy, qualified I should find a job. Maybe I'm just scared of growing up, responsibility. And then again I'm jealous of my brother who already found a great job and just started work. So maybe I'm scared of rejection from job interviews. And the result is that I'm immobilized.
Aaaargh. Ranting. But it helps a little to get things off your chest.
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Tactiles aren't stopping. Taken propranolol and diazepam cos I can't have a proper flashback here. 2.5 hours to get through and then I'm running home. Running could either be grounding or totally impossible, not sure yet.
Original post by HmMusic
I guess I never knew that sort of stuff was available and in the last few months when I've been posting here and hearing about people having this stuff in place I started thinking to myself, well my stuff can't be as serious as this. But the weekend really really scared me, I hadn't had those thoughts since I was 15/16 and I'm still having them today. Trouble is because I'm pregnant I'm worried that they will just say it's because of the pregnancy.
I'm seeing my GP on Wednesday anyway to go back on sertraline, so I'm just going to have to talk to him then. He's not my usual GP either because she's away on maternity leave, but he is kind and understanding. I hope that I can get some help because feeling like this right now and after I have my baby is not right.
I think I just need to make it clear to everyone how bad it is. Otherwise they will all just do what the doctor did yesterday. And even then they won't do much because my depression isn't as serious as others'.
I'm seeing my GP on Wednesday anyway to go back on sertraline, so I'm just going to have to talk to him then. He's not my usual GP either because she's away on maternity leave, but he is kind and understanding. I hope that I can get some help because feeling like this right now and after I have my baby is not right.
I think I just need to make it clear to everyone how bad it is. Otherwise they will all just do what the doctor did yesterday. And even then they won't do much because my depression isn't as serious as others'.
I think you are completely right. Somehow they have missed how depressed you are and it isn't right to feel like you are right now. It would be great if you can manage to get that over to the GP on Wednesday and how scared you were at the weekend and the kinds of thoughts you have been having.
Big hug,
Original post by asdfgah
Tactiles aren't stopping. Taken propranolol and diazepam cos I can't have a proper flashback here. 2.5 hours to get through and then I'm running home. Running could either be grounding or totally impossible, not sure yet.
Hope running goes okay!
Original post by catoswyn
The GP is right that various anti-depressants are not approved for use under the age of eighteen. However there some approved anti-depressants for this age group and if your GP is not confident in prescribing and monitoring these then they need to refer you to a psychiatrist who is a specialist in these meds. Could you mention that a referral might be good if they don't feel they can prescribe meds themselves? Its just that the risk of meds has to be balanced against the risk of those particular thoughts becoming overwhelming. At the least, if you can't take meds, they should be seeing you regularly via a CPN if you are having these thoughts. It shouldn't be up to you to be having to make GP appointments and the like to get through.
Great that you are able to talk on here though. It can get much better. Hold on in there.
HUG,
Great that you are able to talk on here though. It can get much better. Hold on in there.
HUG,
Thanks
I'm 19 but she said she's not usually happy to prescribe to the under-22s.(She prescribed them to my brother and he felt much worse for it though, can this reaction be genetic??) I know these things vary from area to area and doctor to doctor though. What is a CPN?? I don't know how long the waiting list to see a psychiatrist may be, I know for NHS counselling in my area it can be nearly a year. (
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what's up?
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Don't know what to as in you're bored and restless and can't find something to do or about something in particular?
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what's up?Original post by Anonymous
Don't know what to as in you're bored and restless and can't find something to do or about something in particular?
Boyfriends in a bad way and i cant be with him
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Run was a bit ****ty. Forgot my ipod and not really in the mood so did a painfully slow 6K. Blood sugar went low so had to walk and drink sugar. But no flashback yet. Might still be about to happen though, not sure.
I'll be joining the gym soon 
. I'll admit until not long ago I didn't see the point of the gym and thought it was really expensive, but I'm forced to concede that I won't improve my fitness otherwise. I guess I'll be spending most of the time there on the treadmill. I've seen that The Gym is £16.99/month but I'd also like to improve my badminton so maybe I should get a membership somewhere that also has courts? 
Something to think about 
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. I'll admit until not long ago I didn't see the point of the gym and thought it was really expensive, but I'm forced to concede that I won't improve my fitness otherwise. I guess I'll be spending most of the time there on the treadmill. I've seen that The Gym is £16.99/month but I'd also like to improve my badminton so maybe I should get a membership somewhere that also has courts? Something to think about Posted from TSR Mobile
Original post by asdfgah
Run was a bit ****ty. Forgot my ipod and not really in the mood so did a painfully slow 6K. Blood sugar went low so had to walk and drink sugar. But no flashback yet. Might still be about to happen though, not sure.
How can you say it was ****ty? If I feel ****ty I run only 1 of my laps, 2.6km and really slow. You went 6k that is quite some distance tbh!
Original post by catoswyn
I think you are completely right. Somehow they have missed how depressed you are and it isn't right to feel like you are right now. It would be great if you can manage to get that over to the GP on Wednesday and how scared you were at the weekend and the kinds of thoughts you have been having.
Big hug,
Big hug,
They miss everything. I have said many times on here that I was told my pregnancy symptoms were thyroid related. They've signed me off work a few years ago because of anxiety, written letters to Uni, and put me on antidepressants which I was told to come off because of my thyroid stuff a while back, but that's it. They tried referring me to a council run counselling service a few years ago who turned me away because at 21 I was "too young" to need their help and said I should go to a young person's service which I've been to before and found very unhelpful. Now I know about all the stuff available I can't believe nothing more has been done about it.
My dad came round today and we had a good talk about what happened at the weekend. He feels sick that mum could do something like this and of course that made all the thoughts come back. It's so irrational. Worst thing is I am the only person he has in his life now to support him, aside from my brother who isn't good at support, but I can't even support myself.
Worst thing is there is now talk of divorce, him having to sell his house, and having his life ruined even more. I can't even be strong for him.
This is a nightmare. I need to have help now. I feel hopeless.
The gym is a good group, it has all you need and its cheap. I go to the one in hounslow and its a good size and has decent equipment.
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The gym is a good group, it has all you need and its cheap. I go to the one in hounslow and its a good size and has decent equipment.
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Lool that is the one I'll be going to
Yeah definitely cheap, I was looking at membership prices of other gyms online and was like 
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The gym is a good group, it has all you need and its cheap. I go to the one in hounslow and its a good size and has decent equipment.
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Original post by Anonymous
How can you say it was ****ty? If I feel ****ty I run only 1 of my laps, 2.6km and really slow. You went 6k that is quite some distance tbh!
I dunno. Took like 50 mins because I had to walk a large chunk of it, and I've eaten so much so feeling really fat and bleh. I know I'm not technically overweight I just feel horrible at the moment. Today has just been a bit crap I think.
