Mental Health Support Society Mk X

Thank you! The only downside was I didn't really like the book haha... so I guess it's even more surprising (and rewarding) that I stuck with it!

So my results officially go up at 2pm I think, and it will be in black and white on the computer that im a failure


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So my results officially go up at 2pm I think, and it will be in black and white on the computer that im a failure


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I'm all enthusiastic about my novel plans now, I dunno how long that will last

That's quite a challenge! Good luck

You're not a failure at all. You've fought long and hard in the face of difficult odds. And your course didn't sound Mickey Mouse at all, from what you've said about it. Not actually sure what the course is but anything involving a placement can't be that Mickey Mouse!

If you hate yourself so much where do you get the capacity to stay in a relationship with someone ?

Because he's amazing and o good to me. And if I end it everyone here will hunt me down


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It was amazing. I knew it'd be good but then it was even better than I ever expected it to be. I'm just feeling a bit delicate at the moment and I relate to Simon Pegg's character a little too much for comfort.

The scene where you find out why he's on his epic pub crawl broke me.

Great stuff! Well done. You really should be pleased with yourself. I really struggle to read books, though I've built myself up a little summer reading list to help me with my writing process (have decided to write a novel based on what happened in Oxford. Partly coz it would sell well and I'd be loaded, partly because it would hopefully be cathartic)

I would totally read that (if you'd be ok with it)! I have wanted to write a book for years and years but I just have no creativity left. I haven't sat and read in years. It used to be all I did.

I'm becoming increasingly bored now . I do go out by myself once every few days but I'd really love to go on holiday somewhere. But my parents are tied up with fasting for the next three weeks which means we are not going anywhere. I really want a change.

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Ohhh I see! I shall take the tissues then, I suspect I may be a bit weepy at the end because I LOVE Pegg, Frost and Wainwright and their last film is a sad event.



I would totally read that (if you'd be ok with it)! I have wanted to write a book for years and years but I just have no creativity left. I haven't sat and read in years. It used to be all I did.

Sometimes when depressed it is easy to dismiss everything you are successful at, or which is positive about yourself, your life or the world as a whole. Those types of negative thought pattern are very characteristic of depressive illnesses and even though they are damaging it can start to seem more comfortable to accept them than to challenge them. It seems to me from your recent posts that you are typing the same self-hating posts over and over, and not accepting anybody's responses. I don't mean this as a criticism against you, more as advice for battling the depressive thoughts. Typing and posting the negative thoughts could be reaffirming them and making it easier for depression to win.

I'm just heading out now, but have some more advice on this front - will post more when I'm back.

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I don't even understand my own feelings. So yeah I see where your coming from. I haven't learnt what is from the depression "voice" and what is real. Iv had no help with anything for well 6 months.
It's so ingrained in me though, that I genuinely think it's the tru when I say I'm a failure. Ever since primary school Iv been the fat failure, so I guess Iv taken that to be the truth. I was even put on the "stupid" table in year 6...

Hope your ok

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Poncho though! The one thing I took from my therapist and therapy is that these things that people say are opinions not facts. They don't have any real basis to them and you can completely change them if you want to but it's if you want to change them or attempt to change them. Surely if you've had people talking down to you and saying you're a failure you'd want to prove them wrong even more instead of just accepting their opinion about you?

Don't need luck, already failed, but the official result are out today. But it won't change my marks


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That's impressive! If I don't like a book, I abandon it VERY quickly



Don't worry - I tend to be rather vague about what happened, depending on which part of the forum I'm in. I don't wanna put potential applicants off. Safe to say though that it was not a happy experience for me

Awww about it making you cry Tbh whilst I'm all enthusiastic about my novel plans now, I dunno how long that will last

I guess when your told something everyday for 15 odd years at school and at home, you kinda believe it.
It's what I'm hoping CBT will help with though I guess. But every time I fail academically or in other aspects of my life it just proves that I am actually a failure I guess. So I dunno if it's real or the depression.


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Haha well there have been so many books in the past I didn't enjoy to begin with but ended up being amazing so I try not to abandoned books too early. I just ended up finishing the book in question because it wasn't too long .

Ah ok well I'm a PM away if there's anything you want to talk about. I applied and didn't get in. Definitely felt like an absolute failure for a while and it doesn't help that my family, well my brother, still refers to it! Sorry it wasn't a good experience for you .

I can completely understand but even if the enthusiasm fades (fingers crossed it doesn't!) the beauty of writing your own novel is being able to go back to it when you feel able to and taking your time with it! Good luck with it regardless... I'm sure in the future you'll be posting about how you've finished the novel .