Mental Health Support Society Mk X

Can't stop crying long enough to do the work I need to get done. Hate this so much and don't know why I have to be so flipping pathetic. Just want to curl up and hide.

Thanks for that link, i've been making notes to take to the GP appointment because i'd forget to mention everything. What's written in there was useful, it'll help me articulate myself.

I guess i'm afraid to turn back now because i've spent money on my degree and i don't want to feel like a quitter. My mate got an apprenticeship straight out of A levels doing something i always wanted to do but didn't know how to. I'm a very controlling person and like to be secure and that apprenticeship gives him a job at the end automatically. It's not near the kind of pay i'd expect doing what i currently do but that doesn't bother me in the slightest, i'd rather do something i enjoyed and had less responsibility (don't deal well with it) than something that pays more but i'll constantly fear i'll mess up.

I'm also worried that i'm just telling myself i don't want to do it as a defence mechanism and that i'm just jealous that my mate has a job already and i don't. It's maybe my self confidence, that's why i'm reluctant to change paths now incase it isn't for the right reasons.

I also feel in limbo because i want to finish my degree and work in the job for a bit to really see whether i do or don't like it before doing anything but that apprenticeship is only running for three years and i can't see there being other opportunities in that field afterwards. I only went to university because i was pressured into it from my college but didn't realise they were pushing me to it for their own targets not because it was the best decision for me.

I'm studying Building Surveying at the minute and he's doing his apprenticeship for Nexus who run the railway network round here - it's a job for life but my current path is unstable.

Appreciate anyone who listens and i hope i can return help to the community in here, i just don't know people very well at the minute

That's what makes it so painful. I put myself out for others always but noone is there for me when my life falls apart. It's ok. Stuff'll be sorted soon.

Made it through the day! Feeling super successful. Managed to talk a few people into going up the climbing wall and had a go myself too. Pretty sure I broke every muscle I own though but worth it. Starting to worry that youth work is what I should be doing with my life and I've spent the past 6 years wasting my life on a computer science degree.

I'm just hoping I have the energy to survive the residential next week.

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Made it through the day! Feeling super successful. Managed to talk a few people into going up the climbing wall and had a go myself too. Pretty sure I broke every muscle I own though but worth it. Starting to worry that youth work is what I should be doing with my life and I've spent the past 6 years wasting my life on a computer science degree.

I'm just hoping I have the energy to survive the residential next week.

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That's what makes it so painful. I put myself out for others always but noone is there for me when my life falls apart. It's ok. Stuff'll be sorted soon.

Prehaps take time for YOU for a bit, do stuff you enjoy that may make you feel better.
And im sure people appreciate it, maybe there not sure how bad thongs actually currently are?


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Made it through the day! Feeling super successful. Managed to talk a few people into going up the climbing wall and had a go myself too. Pretty sure I broke every muscle I own though but worth it. Starting to worry that youth work is what I should be doing with my life and I've spent the past 6 years wasting my life on a computer science degree.

I'm just hoping I have the energy to survive the residential next week.

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Awesomeness! Climbing sounds like fun, and doing a degree is pretty much never a waste cos it'll have all kinds of real-world applications.

Well done Work like that can be very rewarding. It clearly makes you feel good, is computer science no longer satisfying?

Sorry, have a mental image of you (not that I know what you look like) having horrible trouble wearing a thong.

It was super fun. I was dreadful but it was fun and helping others up the wall was fun too. I guess my degree isn't pointless but I really wish I'd chosen to do something based around youth work.

I'm in the process of considering teaching but if I enjoy the next 5 weeks of youth stuff then I'll consider more voluntary work at local youth centres. I have until September 2014 to choose my next course after all.

Hmm, how long till you've finished the degree? Maybe you could finish that off, apply for the apprenticeship then have the degree to fall back on if you don't get in? And there's nothing wrong with doing a degree in one thing then working in another field - I'm just finishing studying Russian at uni, and I'm currently looking at jobs/apprenticeships/volunteering in all kinds of lines of work, like bakery, textiles and mental health!

I think I'm really drained and computer science just feels like a life suck. I'll finish my degree (I only have one semester left) but I really wish I could go back and tell myself to do something I wanted to do instead of choosing something I was naturally good at.

Hell to the yeah
Apparently because it was exercise related it was acceptable to watch it at the end of term and stuff

I dont think my group were ever aloud to play dodgeball itself, we would have hurt each other most likely haha


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Phone call half way through job interview telling me I've got a mental health act assessment in 30 mins. You'll know what happened if I don't report back

Yeah that's been the plan in the back of my mind. It just gets complicated with things like my placement year getting in the way. If i choose not to do one i can be done my degree in a years time (just finished Y2) but i'd graduate without having done a placement so it won't be a sandwich degree. It's harder to get employment after uni in this field without the placement, but not impossible. That's why if i don't get this placement i'm not sure whether to spend another year looking for one and just working part time or to go straight to final year, finish, and apply for the apprenticeship alongside jobs in the surveying field.

I hate the constant prejudice on here. It is not nice when the same people do it constantly and it does get you down.

I hate the constant prejudice on here. It is not nice when the same people do it constantly and it does get you down.

Ah yeah, that does complicate things a bit. Still, is it at all possible to take time off from your degree and do the apprenticeship? Or 'finish' the degree, then do the placement later? Might be an idea to meet up with your personal tutor or someone from uni to discuss your options.

Me being targeted day in and day out on here

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Also, just saw your promotion So congratulations to you dude!