So I went to the hospital two nights ago for an emergency appointment because I was in a real state (anxious and angry and feeling really out of control) - the doctor's solution was to try to make me take diazepam - I refused, and I'm glad I did since on researching she should never have offered it to me (past alcohol abuse/self harm/eating disorder/depression) and the possible side effects would be disastrous for me since at the minute I'm trying to study and get on top of my degree work. It makes me feel very distrustful and anxious about going back (I have a GP appt on Monday) - what should I tell them? This is all confused by the fact that I'm moving back and forth between England and NI all through the year and it's going to be basically impossible to get any consistent treatment and I'm probably going to end up having to waste a lot of my time.