Feeling really useless. I tried playing my bass yesterday and got so frustrated that I couldn't get a certain part of a song right, I think I might actually sell it because I'm crap, I've hardly progressed at all in the several years I've been playing.
So there's that, then there's the fact I haven't got a job. I finished my masters in August, it's now mid-October and I've applied for exactly zero jobs. I'm pretty sure no one would hire me even if I applied, I mean who's going to hire some loser with a bunch of self-harm marks and who hears voices? I'm overweight, I'm ugly and my concentration level and social skills are appalling. But my wife keeps complaining about money, definitely gonna have to go into our savings this year. I want to get a job but I'm scared. I'm scared of rejection but also of acceptance. How's it gonna look if I do get a job and can't handle it? I mean I couldn't even handle volunteering, that was meant to be the first step and I quit after just a few times. I'm such a pathetic loser.