Hey guys. I Spose I should explain myself. My name is Arif, I'm 16 and I've fought off depression three times. 2012 was the first and most severe, 2013 was also bad and the recent one was minor. The first one was caused by a realisation that I was someone I didn't want to be. I was dude to teachers, a smart ass and incredibly bad behaved. People loved the Monster I became however, I didn't and I realise they only loved what I did. Not me. Thankfully I dragged myself out after a horrible incident where I broke down in front of my maths class. I'm glad to say the normal Arif is back. The second in 2013 was caused by loneliness from having moved to London and being an outsider. I spent listens on the brink of tears and in summer. I was a empty shell. 2014 was caused by heartache, nothing major. I never felt auicidal in any of those thank god. I'm ok now, sometimes I feel low. Over stupid things such as feelings and not feeling like anyone cares as much as I do. Hey, I gotta live with that.