okay so chatted with my mum, she convinced me to give the Access course a try cause apparently the college have really good learning support (she used to work there) so gonna sort out another interview with them for that. it's the easiest one to get to travel wise & if I get support I think I can just about cope with that, just gotta try to stay positive about stuff and remember that I will get support this time. also called student finance to check I can still get funding for a degree and they said I should still have 3 years funding as I only technically completed 1 full year of Uni in the past, though I can get more funding years if I get a note from my GP about the times I had to drop out so that's okay as well.
feel a lot more relaxed about it all now I think after talking it over with my mum.