Being at home is definitely better for my mood, picked up supplies for a baking day on Wednesday (I'd bake tomorrow but I want my brother to tidy the kitchen before I mess it up). Anxiety is playing up a bit lot but it's infinitely preferable to how I was last week
What are you baking? I'm hoping to have a baking day this week if I can be bothered venturing out for ingredients .
that's okay im okay I guess, was going to start college this week but with so much still to sort out (finance, support, etc) I decided to defer it for another year so I can be much better prepared for it next year. had a headache all evening/night though drinking tons of juice and watching some films to make me feel better though! hope things are good with you?
Being invisible to others is excellent- I'd thouroughly reccomend it. Does wonders for your confidence and self esteem. Not to mention social isolation levels and general overall wellbeing.
that sounds awful, it's never nice when people don't notice you, especially when you feel down anyway, I hope you are okay though? am sure other people will notice you even if the people who made you feel like this didn't!
10 days till university starts and i've been having daily panic attacks about whether i'll be accepted because of my NVLD and autism and the fact that I'm Christian and awesome or if people will think I'm the spawn of the devil
Being invisible to others is excellent- I'd thouroughly reccomend it. Does wonders for your confidence and self esteem. Not to mention social isolation levels and general overall wellbeing.
Been meaning to ask you if you were ok after last week. Did you get to the doctors and then home alright in the end?
What are you baking? I'm hoping to have a baking day this week if I can be bothered venturing out for ingredients .
Chocolate cake. It's a pretty brilliant one (anything containing half a kilo of chocolate is brilliant) but I do need to work out the icing for it since that tend to not go quite right. May also make cookies depending on if I run out of ingredients. Baking days are awesome.
10 days till university starts and i've been having daily panic attacks about whether i'll be accepted because of my NVLD and autism and the fact that I'm Christian and awesome or if people will think I'm the spawn of the devil
I'm sure you will, you won't be the only one there worried about it but hopefully it'll be fine! Maybe if you explained to people about your autism etc they might understand a bit more? And you could always join the Christian society (if there is such thing) and then people there definitely won't think you're weird for that, and it gives you something in common to talk about to start off with?
10 days till university starts and i've been having daily panic attacks about whether i'll be accepted because of my NVLD and autism and the fact that I'm Christian and awesome or if people will think I'm the spawn of the devil
Praying for you. Most unis have a Christian Union so look into that.
that's okay im okay I guess, was going to start college this week but with so much still to sort out (finance, support, etc) I decided to defer it for another year so I can be much better prepared for it next year. had a headache all evening/night though drinking tons of juice and watching some films to make me feel better though! hope things are good with you?
Deferring is a good idea till you're all organised and prepared. You can slowly make sure everything is sorted out so you can start with a lot less stress! I'm happy for you - I remember reading how you missed uni and stuff so hopefully college will put you on the path to something good .
What will you be studying? I'm sure you've posted it before but I can't remember, sorry .
What did you watch? I watched a terrible horror movie the other day which was more funny than scary .
I also had a headache last night (from crying ). How are you feeling today?
I'm ok... I read something sad online instead of trying to sleep and ended up crying. I felt down anyway and cried for over an hour at 3am, initially about what I read then just because I felt horrid . I'm feeling a bit empty this morning but I'm ok (other than still having a slight headache from crying). Things aren't really good because I withdrew from my course as I was having doubts about it/ wanted to explore my other interests... initially I was kind of relieved but I just feel worried all the time because it's the first time I've never had a plan or not known what I'm doing... .
Chocolate cake. It's a pretty brilliant one (anything containing half a kilo of chocolate is brilliant) but I do need to work out the icing for it since that tend to not go quite right. May also make cookies depending on if I run out of ingredients. Baking days are awesome.
hope everything went well, and that recovery isn't too painful
Thanks all. It went fine but i'm still recovering. Had a miniature breakdown yesterday after the morphine in my system left, let's just say that plus codeine is quite a combo
I think it went okay. I won't know for a few weeks.