Ugh. Couldn't sleep and ended up going casino and blowing another couple of hundred quid. Just got in and now I have to get in the shower and go to work after a frantic night of gambling and no sleep for the second time this week.
I have my money paid into someone else's account to help save me from myself and I already had to go to them once this week and tell them I blew it and needed more cash and now I will have to do it again tomorrow because they are going away and I need to pay for travel.
It is horrible in the casino too. At 4am on a weekday morning, it is only really the full-on addicts and we are generally an unpleasant bunch when in action. So disgusted with myself yet again. Getting out of control. When I feel like this, self destructive and compulsive behaviour is all I can focus on.