I'm fed up with my AS level right now. I expect myself to study 2 chapters of history everyday and never done it. I always believe my biggest passion is politics and study politics is my pleasure, but every time I look to it now, erghh I want to throw up. Get the bloody chemistry out of my mind all of the atoms and freaking mechanism of some stupid organic compound. Just take out of this hell. I expect too much, I expect myself to study properly and follow my plan. Everything is ****. Every time I get my revision cards out and try my best to squeeze in my brain, it starts to blow up like a ballon and then, I lost everything. I know hard work pay off, BUT WHEN WILL IT BE PAY OFF??? I need to go to that uni, that is my dream. AND I'M NOT GONNA LET MY STUPID FEELING AND GIVING UP AFFECT IT. I'M NOT GONNA REGRET ANYTHING. JUST DO IT. JUST SIT DOWN ON MY TABLE AND DO IT. I will not regret, just do it, do it like a machine, but remember my dream. AND JUST DO IT!!!
Many thanks to anyone read this note....