No I cannot, I only feel okay with myself for a period after I've had cosmetic procedures performed.
If I look bad to myself in the mirror, I legitimately feel DIRTY no matter how clean I am. Like how you might feel leaving the house without having showered in a week with gross unkempt hair and not shaved. Exact same feeling. I'm legitimately uncomfortable to be out in public.
Then I get more procedures to fix the thing which is making me feel dirty (which might be, for example, a slope on my nose).
Sometimes I enjoy the way I look after having stuff done to myself, then feel good about my looks for a while. Although it's very shakey and if, for example, even one girl is not interested in me, I may melt down and think I'm deformed again. I may also melt down if I see a guy who looks better than me, be it in real life, or sometimes even on TV comparing myself to them.
Will you accept that I THINK you are a valuable, special person who deserves all the happiness in the world?
How has it affected relationships? Romantic ones I mean.
I have BDD and severe OCD and it got worse with my boyfriend throughout our relationship. It was tough at first (arguments), but I found explaining my thought processes in general about myself / explaining how I can't control myself during a panic attack really helps. He has been SO supportive to understand and know what is best for the certain situation.
Although - If i was single now (as it has worsened) god knows how I would ever get into dating or begin a relationship... it definitely puts a strain and especially if the other person does not understand!
I have BDD and severe OCD and it got worse with my boyfriend throughout our relationship. It was tough at first (arguments), but I found explaining my thought processes in general about myself / explaining how I can't control myself during a panic attack really helps. He has been SO supportive to understand and know what is best for the certain situation.
Although - If i was single now (as it has worsened) god knows how I would ever get into dating or begin a relationship... it definitely puts a strain and especially if the other person does not understand!7
"Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) is a distinct mental disorder in which a person is preoccupied with an imagined physical defect or a minor defect that others often cannot see. As a result, people with this disorder see themselves as "ugly" and often avoid social exposure or turn to plastic surgery to try to improve their appearance."
I think I have this. I want to die because I feel so ugly. I feel like I am short and broad.