Do you ever feel like you’re not good enough as a black girl, no one ever seems to want to associate with you, either platonically or romantically, I just feel so numb. I have so much trauma, so many memories of trying to fit in, being bullied for my hair, my skin colour, so many micro-aggressions and I’m really exhausted mentally, crying myself to sleep just doesn’t cut it anymore because it doesn’t change anything, on top of that the gaslighting I get when I speak on the issues I go through, it’s like I’m forced to suffer in silence and I just want someone to talk to. I just feel like every aspect of my life is such a sham, I always try to be the best in everything I do to make up for every other imperfection I have and it still doesn’t satisfy me, sometimes I just give up, sometimes I procrastinate, sometimes I just don’t care anymore and it’s to the point where I literally just feel nothing. Every single day is a drag, a walk in a never ending path that I feel the destination is no where to be seen. I always wish to be someone, someone other than me, I wish I was actually pretty, I dream about scenarios that will never happen, I silently love people who I doubt would ever like me back, I contemplate if they’d ever even consider “a girl like me”. There’s so much more I wanna say, and I just feel like no one understands or will ever understand, because I get gaslit every single time. I honestly don’t know what to do, this is basically just a cry for help because I’m actually just so tired. Can anyone relate with me?