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    I have that horrible sinking feeling. Been free from depression for over a year and am worried that this is all starting to begin again. Had moments over the past few days where I have felt so horrible, cycling past car and wondering what it would be like if I just went to the side a bit and in front of the car. I am in my final year of university now and I don't want this to hinder my progress but keep getting that feeling inside like I am about to burst from the outside in. Currently lying on the floor trying to calm down.
    Are you seeing a doctor or anything? I'd say why not go have a chat with the counseling service at your university, sometimes that can be helpful if these symptoms start to resurface. However, if you were on medication before maybe it might be an idea to go back onto that medication?
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    Feeling really useless. I tried playing my bass yesterday and got so frustrated that I couldn't get a certain part of a song right, I think I might actually sell it because I'm crap, I've hardly progressed at all in the several years I've been playing.

    So there's that, then there's the fact I haven't got a job. I finished my masters in August, it's now mid-October and I've applied for exactly zero jobs. I'm pretty sure no one would hire me even if I applied, I mean who's going to hire some loser with a bunch of self-harm marks and who hears voices? I'm overweight, I'm ugly and my concentration level and social skills are appalling. But my wife keeps complaining about money, definitely gonna have to go into our savings this year. I want to get a job but I'm scared. I'm scared of rejection but also of acceptance. How's it gonna look if I do get a job and can't handle it? I mean I couldn't even handle volunteering, that was meant to be the first step and I quit after just a few times. I'm such a pathetic loser.
    Don't be too hard on yourself, I graduated in July, and not only don't have a job, I haven't even had an interview. I only started applying for jobs in the last month or so. You should upload your CV to a job search site, and let agencies call you - I have done this and it is much easier having people contact you saying you might be suitable for this job. Take it one step at a time - I have the same fears as you do, however I know I need a job, so I am trying to push myself, and hope I manage. I have faith in you to manage if you do get a job/

    Also, I am about 4/5 pounds off becoming overweight due to Quetiapine

    (P.s. Sorry - I know I have actually moaned more than posted helpful stuff to you!)

    Edit: I agree with los lobos marinos as well, he expressed things much better than I did!
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    Are you seeing a doctor or anything? I'd say why not go have a chat with the counseling service at your university, sometimes that can be helpful if these symptoms start to resurface. However, if you were on medication before maybe it might be an idea to go back onto that medication?
    Haven't been to see my doctor in over a year and don't really want to go back, don't want to worry anyone. I had a bad experience with the counselling service at uni last time, got this guy who just scared me and asked nasty questions and I just cried through the whole thing so I am scared to go back now and also they have a very long waiting list. I was on Mirtazipine last time (started on Citalopram but it affected me badly) but really really don't want to go back on it what with the weight gain and the drugged mornings.

    Not sure what to do with myself really.
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    Don't be too hard on yourself, I graduated in July, and not only don't have a job, I haven't even had an interview. I only started applying for jobs in the last month or so. You should upload your CV to a job search site, and let agencies call you - I have done this and it is much easier having people contact you saying you might be suitable for this job. Take it one step at a time - I have the same fears as you do, however I know I need a job, so I am trying to push myself, and hope I manage.

    Also, I am about 4/5 pounds off becoming overweight due to Quetiapine

    (P.s. Sorry - I know I have actually moaned more than posted helpful stuff to you!)
    The job site idea might be good but aren't they usually quite long-term jobs? We've moving next July for definite so I'm not sure how suitable that would be. There's a bunch of fast food places looking for people here which I think I could do with my mcdonald's experience. But really I want to go to the police station and ask if they have any openings (not to be an officer obviously) but I'm too scared of being rejected If I don't ask I won't get rejected

    Oh yeah, quetiapine munchies. :console: You could try joining a gym? If you struggle to afford it, I know the NHS sometimes gives out free gym memberships so you could try that? There's also the free couch to 5k program which you can download to an mp3 player and gradually up your fitness until you can run 5k I lost a few pounds doing that. You could also ask Superwolf to stop making so many delicious muffins I asked my psychiatrist for metformin as I wasn't losing weight on antipsychotics and so far I've lost 10lbs despite starting risperidone. So that might be an idea?

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    Haven't been to see my doctor in over a year and don't really want to go back, don't want to worry anyone. I had a bad experience with the counselling service at uni last time, got this guy who just scared me and asked nasty questions and I just cried through the whole thing so I am scared to go back now and also they have a very long waiting list. I was on Mirtazipine last time (started on Citalopram but it affected me badly) but really really don't want to go back on it what with the weight gain and the drugged mornings.

    Not sure what to do with myself really.
    Hmm that does sound like a pickle. I'm on mirtazapine and it's worked great for me, I found the weight gain did level off after a while, it was more increased appetite than messing with my metabolism I think so if you're careful I think it can be avoided. It's also an odd drug in that higher doses are less sedating so you could try asking for a higher dose? Obviously you'd need to see a doctor to do that. Don't worry about worrying people, it's better to nip these things in the bud as soon as possible.
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    Hmm that does sound like a pickle. I'm on mirtazapine and it's worked great for me, I found the weight gain did level off after a while, it was more increased appetite than messing with my metabolism I think so if you're careful I think it can be avoided. It's also an odd drug in that higher doses are less sedating so you could try asking for a higher dose? Obviously you'd need to see a doctor to do that. Don't worry about worrying people, it's better to nip these things in the bud as soon as possible.
    Nooo moreeeee mirtazipineeeeeee
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    Was wondering just now how long a human can last without eating?
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    Spoke to nightline tonight properly - was a lot more helpful this time, having thought about what I actually wanted to talk about. Had a fairly active/people filled day too, so had less time to think about stuff, which is always good.
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    Was wondering just now how long a human can last without eating?
    Seriously you don't want to do this at all, bad idea :/

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    edit: good news, I refrained from doing anything bad and I managed to end up having a decent night apart from trying to deal with my ex :nooo:
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    I'm am so so nervous. I'm going to see my GP in just over an hour. I'm scared I'm going to just not let anything out


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    I'm am so so nervous. I'm going to see my GP in just over an hour. I'm scared I'm going to just not let anything out


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    (Original post by Sabertooth)
    Feeling really useless. I tried playing my bass yesterday and got so frustrated that I couldn't get a certain part of a song right, I think I might actually sell it because I'm crap, I've hardly progressed at all in the several years I've been playing.
    Classical or Electric? How often do you play?

    So there's that, then there's the fact I haven't got a job. I finished my masters in August, it's now mid-October and I've applied for exactly zero jobs. I'm pretty sure no one would hire me even if I applied, I mean who's going to hire some loser with a bunch of self-harm marks and who hears voices? I'm overweight, I'm ugly and my concentration level and social skills are appalling. But my wife keeps complaining about money, definitely gonna have to go into our savings this year. I want to get a job but I'm scared. I'm scared of rejection but also of acceptance. How's it gonna look if I do get a job and can't handle it? I mean I couldn't even handle volunteering, that was meant to be the first step and I quit after just a few times. I'm such a pathetic loser.
    You are definitely not a pathetic loser. You are clearly ill and thus simply can't just throw you in a job. I would to try again to volunteer and maybe search as a first job, something really easy and flexible. Then you can build up the skills and the self-confidence to apply to jobs, which scare you know. (Yeah, I know, sounds not great, but to highlight the less risky way.)
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    EIS = Early intervention service
    CPN = Community psychiatric nurse?
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    Went to my GP, burst out crying before I even say down. I've been prescribe Setraline and referred for counselling. Feel so relieved now!


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    Went to my GP, burst out crying before I even say down. I've been prescribe Setraline and referred for counselling. Feel so relieved now!


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    :hugs: Glad it went OK - nothing wrong with a good cry. I was on Sertraline for ages and it had a very positive impact for me - I hope it does the same for you too
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    :hugs: Glad it went OK - nothing wrong with a good cry. I was on Sertraline for ages and it had a very positive impact for me - I hope it does the same for you too
    Thank you so much that's so good to hear.


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    Hey, uh, I'm back.
    Previously known as 'gemmanewman' - my account was hacked into. :cry:

    Anyway, hope everyone is doing alright :hugs:
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    Hi guys,

    have any of you ever had a home visit from a member of your mental health team?

    I received a letter from mines and it seemed weird as I've been going to them in the past (albeit my last meeting went terribly, I sobbed uncontrollably). Obviously phoning them would help but anxiety and other stuff makes me put it off :/

    best.
    Home visits are actually really effective. It feels safer and I definitely feel more "at home" so, I can talk more openly than some small office. :hugs:
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    Went to my GP, burst out crying before I even say down. I've been prescribe Setraline and referred for counselling. Feel so relieved now!


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    Sorry to hear, but it's good to hear you feel a little better now you've been prescribed pills. They are there for a reason and they do help! Good luck. :hugs:
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    Hey, uh, I'm back.
    Previously known as 'gemmanewman' - my account was hacked into. :cry:

    Anyway, hope everyone is doing alright :hugs:
    Silly people, hacking you :shakecane: Hope you're doing alright, lovely
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    Silly people, hacking you :shakecane: Hope you're doing alright, lovely
    Yeah, I'm alright hun. Just hate starting all over again. :hugs:
 
 
 
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