Oh guys, what a few weeks its been.
I think everyone has finally stopped mentioning my ex and the break up, thank god. It was really grating on me hearing about it so much, but I'm glad everyone's moved on. He was out on Tuesday when I was working and was pulling a girl so he can't use the pity card anymore, either
. I actually want him to get a gf so I can pull whoever and people can't be all "awk poor him" to me. Poor girl tho... She has no idea what she's getting into
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I also lost my granda last week. It was his funeral on Tuesday, which was tough. I went into work on Tuesday night (wanted to be busy), and they'd put me on the bar area which I hate, and I ended up crying at the thought of doing it. Managers said I could go home and that was fine but I wanted to work, so I was glad when they moved me into a different room. Things weren't that bad in the end (not gonna say what happened but lets just say... cute guy. Nothings ever gonna happen but I can perve
). Anyway, to add to that, I have a really sore throat. My neck and glands are really sore, so I've taken 2 amoxicillin. Don't wanna ring in sick as I feel fine apart from that, and I need the money.
I also have a lot of dissertation work to do for next week, which I'm yet to start. And I'm going out tomorrow and Sunday night drinking, and I'm working Saturday night. Don't even care. I'm pretty done with my degree, plus my ****ty results are out next week. Don't even care what I've got.
I was definitely feeling very down last week (I actually posted in here but deleted the post almost straight away, it was pretty much 100% wallowing in self pity lmao), but I'm feeling a bit better this week. I almost had a panic attack in my seminar on Monday (lecturer noticed I was looking very panicked, but he just made a joke saying "not all of them are gonna last this long, Lindsay!"). It was awful though, I've never felt so trapped. Meh