Hi, so i’ve just finished my first year of college and it’s draining to say the least. I’ve always found it extremely difficult to learn from textbooks or just reading from powerpoints or just told information and have always found it easier with 1 to 1 or practical learning and have always excelled if that’s the case. I’m doing A levels as the other types of courses my college offers mainly relate to things like construction, health and social care, hair and beauty etc. and i’m not interested or wanting to proceed in those at all. I’ve always had a passion for crime related things like forensics, psychology, criminal investigation and would love to have a future career in that, maybe a detective? i’m not sure i’m extremely indecisive. Anyways, i got my results yesterday and i got Us in all my subjects except for criminology which i got a B in. The reason for this is the fact that i cant cope with how i’m being taught in college and all the teachers teach lessons in the same way and i’ve always struggled processing so much information at once or revising in general my attention span is shockingly bad. Getting to college, waking up for it, not skipping lessons became such a chore and i’m honestly hating college life, the social aspect is fine for me, however the learning is just terrible i can’t learn in those ways, i hate studying A levels, all other courses aren’t appealing and I don’t want to proceed with college anymore. However, i feel like i have to do A levels because i need some reassurance my life won’t completely fail in the future. I’ve applied everyday for job, and got rejected by all for no experience and i live in a poor small town so there’s barely any jobs for me as a student, there isn’t time with A levels to even have a job anyway which is a struggle because i need money. I was considering an apprenticeship but i’m not sure how to look, when i check my colleges apprenticeships they’re all to do with like i said, construction, health and social care etc. and i have no interest/desire to proceed in any of those, i want to go into something relating to criminal investigation forensics side of things but my options are so limited. While not doing A levels is what i’d rather do, I feel like i have to finish my 2nd year in criminology and since i need 2 more A levels i’ll have to do a 3rd year and i can’t with the thought of that it makes me feel really depressed just thinking about it and it’s making me have panic attacks because i don’t know what to do. If anyone stayed to read this i beg for advice/help on this please