So, throughout year 10 I have been working relentlessly (arguably, I could say from year 7) and perhaps even avoiding sleep creating a rational plan to how to approach my GCSEs and revising. Now, when I say “revising” I mean learn the content and then actively recalling the information with writing in detail everything I learned (in my own words). As well as this, I also ask for advice from my teachers, especially my English teacher and even she said she is proud of my remarkable efforts. I am beginning to lose patience because everyday I pay attention in class and it doesn’t pay off; I do everything that I’m supposed to do. Despite all my efforts, I find myself being stuck at a grade 5 and 4 and it’s killing me. I know to some people out there that would be great and I am beyond grateful and proud of myself because I know I tried but I always question this because, did I? I don’t know anymore, but I aspire to be a doctor in the future and a grade 5 or 4 is not going to get me there. I need serious help and I don’t know if I’m being too harsh on myself or if I need to do more past papers but I just want to make my parents proud and I’m getting to the point where I am trying to live up to my brothers expectations (grade 9 student) and pretending I’m doing well in school (I’ve lied way too many times). Furthermore, I can’t even say that i have any distractions in school I’m practically a loner, I do have a couple of friends but we only talk in school at like lunch or at break (if I find them🤣, no joke.). Anyway, if you have any tips that could help my suffering please respond. Thank you for reading this!