might make the odd post in here occasionally and as i've been here (uni) for a week now thought this seemed like a good a time as any. Don't know how regular it will be as do sort of have a life now although tbf posting on here doesn't even take that long anyway lol
University Week 1:I don't really know what this week is called if next week is 'fresher's week'. This just seems to be the week that everyone gets settled in and stuff. Tbf i haven't really liked it thus far. Don't get me wrong it is preferable to being at school etc and i do like aspects of it but stuff isn't as clear cut as there = bad, here = good, people seem to find the concept of not being satisfied in either scenario difficult to grasp for some reason. I think it is my mindset more than anything, you could put me in a bubble with absolutely no worried and i would still find the negatives of it or something to worry about. Intending to work on that though but more about that in a minute. Part of it is that everything seems to take so much more effort and energy than it ought to, for instance just working up the courage to use the bathroom or shower was exhausting and for that reason i guess it looks like i have taken a lot longer than other people to sort of get into the swing of things and tbh im still not totally into it. Just a lot of change and things to learn quickly and also with very little guidance
everything is sort of figure it out as you go along which is ok because i do like puzzles and stuff that stimulates thinking but it does slow progress a bit.
Housemates seem decent and nice enough although i still do feel a little out of place as the majority of people are older than me (i think it would be better if i could pull off looking 19 or something but i look 16) so i feel a bit stupid sometimes in terms of 'life skills' or whatever. Everyone seems chill though so that's nice
The thing i need to get better at (well one of many actually) is probably looking after myself, i
can look after myself (i.e i know what to do) i just dont. I'm that person who feeds their pet first and then myself second or not at all plus i dont really care about my own self preservation and have a sort of meh attitude to my own existence so i dont really bother. Atm i have two 'meals' a day and try not to eat anything in between but i might incorporate some form of lunch into that when uni starts properly because the days will be longer
Food and money also stresses me because i keep being paranoid it will run out so i try to ration it all out which sort of works
looked after myself in other ways though tbh, have appointments booked for various things (well 3 things) honestly dreading them, one in particular but ik it's for the best and people on here have been telling me to go for the best part of 2 years and if the doctor thinks i need to go then i suppose i do (although i have a lot of guilt about that because i still dont think there is anything worth going over and that they are overreacting but idk)
that's about everything i suppose, well it's not but don't want to bore people lol
have achieved a lot this week even if it doesn't look that way as just meeting people and saying hi to them and talking to them is an accomplishment and got a lot of 'adminy' stuff done, i.e letters of things etc
well that's that
and lastly but not leastly