I don't know where to post this but still here goes...
Today is probably the saddest day of my life. I've studied education studies and finished this year. I want to be a secondary teacher so I even applied for a PGCE but I never had maths, I was clueless and quite unbothered at the beginning of my degree. I realised during my final year that I want to get into teaching. So I retook maths this year (the old spec for one last time) and I got a D again as always. I got a conditional offer from the university I've always wanted to go to for my PGCE; I got the relevant experience, even passed my skills test (yes both English & maths) I thought everything was going smoothly but no!!! I'm a failure at maths. I do not want to give up! I will re attempt this year but the new specification/grading is scaring me. I don't know how I'll managed. My parents are absolutely heart broken especially by the fact that maybe I raised their hopes too high, including my own. They've told nearly everyone including family/friends that I've been offered a place at university for my pgce with pride. I feel so bad that I've let them down, I don't know what to say to people as I will have to take a gap year.
Yet, I've emailed the university my grade and a message in hope that they would be a bit lenient - unfortunately I do not think they offer equivalency tests.
I feel awful and pathetic. I've already had such an awful year healthwise, yet I stayed strong and good things also happened in return.
I've come so far and I do not want to give up at all. But many things are making me nervous.