I'm unhappy

1.

I'm not sure I've chosen the right subjects. I picked biology, chemistry and geography for a-level and chemistry was the only one I was sure I wanted to do (and still am). It's not that I don't like biology or geography I'm just having serious doubts about them. My main problem with biology is that I struggle to think about illnesses, viruses, bacteria etc. without feeling lightheaded and on occasion fainting; I know these are pretty significant parts of the course and I don't know how to cope with this or talk about it with anyone because I always used to pretend it was because the room was too hot, I know this is a psychological problem/association but it's just not getting any better. My problem with geography is that it was a subject I struggled with at gcse and was unsure about taking but my grandad, who recently passed, wanted me to and I didn't have the heart to change it. But it's too late for me to make any changes now so I guess I'm stuck.

2.

I have 'always' wanted to become a vet and family members will always bring it up however I'm really uncertain whether I actually do or if I'm just too anxious to say otherwise. This is mainly because of the talking about illness induced fainting and anxiety and although I've done work experience in a vets and seen surgery and consultations that I was fine with I'm just not sure it's the right thing for me. So this is another reason I'm not confident in my subject choices.

3.

I'm struggling to make friends because I find it very difficult to start conversations with people I don't know or in groups and find myself sat there in silence as if I've been muted and I can't do anything to stop it, it's killing me.

4.

I've become so much more insecure about my body especially my face and my nose and every time I hear someone whispering or laughing I think it's about me and I didn't want to end up back at this point. I want to get a nose job and honestly just a new face because no one will ever like me as I am and I can't be happy or confident looking like this.

1.

I'm not sure I've chosen the right subjects. I picked biology, chemistry and geography for a-level and chemistry was the only one I was sure I wanted to do (and still am). It's not that I don't like biology or geography I'm just having serious doubts about them. My main problem with biology is that I struggle to think about illnesses, viruses, bacteria etc. without feeling lightheaded and on occasion fainting; I know these are pretty significant parts of the course and I don't know how to cope with this or talk about it with anyone because I always used to pretend it was because the room was too hot, I know this is a psychological problem/association but it's just not getting any better. My problem with geography is that it was a subject I struggled with at gcse and was unsure about taking but my grandad, who recently passed, wanted me to and I didn't have the heart to change it. But it's too late for me to make any changes now so I guess I'm stuck.

2.

I have 'always' wanted to become a vet and family members will always bring it up however I'm really uncertain whether I actually do or if I'm just too anxious to say otherwise. This is mainly because of the talking about illness induced fainting and anxiety and although I've done work experience in a vets and seen surgery and consultations that I was fine with I'm just not sure it's the right thing for me. So this is another reason I'm not confident in my subject choices.

3.

I'm struggling to make friends because I find it very difficult to start conversations with people I don't know or in groups and find myself sat there in silence as if I've been muted and I can't do anything to stop it, it's killing me.

4.

I've become so much more insecure about my body especially my face and my nose and every time I hear someone whispering or laughing I think it's about me and I didn't want to end up back at this point. I want to get a nose job and honestly just a new face because no one will ever like me as I am and I can't be happy or confident looking like this.