okay let me give some context...
so i started alevels in 2022 and in 2023, a few things came up at home. 2 deaths occurred within the span of the few months that has taken a heavy toll on both me and my family. ofc rn we are just trying to push through it but undeniably it will now effect us forever.
during each death it was around mock season. i left year 12 with grades that are not high enough for me to apply to dentistry and the schools i specifically want to go to. im predicted ABB but i need AAA. i have another mock in september and i have a chance to redeem myself then. however.. i have done 0 revision for those mocks and so i am now kinda panicking.
all summer i have been trying to revise for ucat as my exam is coming up in 2 weeks.
now the thing is that i really want a gap year, like i just want to take a break from it all. but.. to those that i have spoken to about it [people who are studying med and taken a gap year] says i should apply this yr, even if i don't get in it is still experience.
i don't know if i should apply this year, and if i should just try to work really hard. but the thing is, mentally i just feel like kinda *****y like idk its that weird state where you kinda just realise everything that has just happened and your brain is trying to process it.
i don't want to put too much on myself but at the same time i don't want to regret anything.
should i just take a gap year, or should i apply this year??