I will never make it as a doctor. I will never have a family. I will never get married. I will never live up to my parents’ goals. I am trapped in a vicious cycle of mental health problems, and not being a doctor just makes me feel even more worthless. I no longer want to be a doctor. They’re overworked, very stressed and have to be on the ball at all times.
There was a time when I was in school and had excellent grades, but this one B grade in PE for GCSE threw me off. I felt like a failure for that one B grade. If only I could get back to my great grades and extra curricular activities I would fight to become a doctor again. It’s just too stressful though.
I am not myself after a lifetime of wanting to be a doctor gone. I am now a loser with severe mental health issues. Where did I go wrong?
Damn my life sucks. I am a drain on resources. Tired of it all.